#103108

[banditgirl84]

We've been through a ton of situations and a lot of it put us through some really rough patches. This last time hurt the most for the both of us but we are still here side by side doing our thing. WE are the A Team! I love you so much my honey! Never forget that.❤ @erickdaff #iloveyou #goingon9yrs #103108 #091415 #TheATeam #myhoneybun #wegotogetherlikecoffeeanddonuts

[msagurl23]

8 years ago today I started my life with this amazing man. Happy 8 years of being best friend and 5 years together. it's crazy I never thought in my life 8 years ago we would have got married and had our son. But God had the plan for us. I couldn't have been any happier. I love you baby. 🎃❤🎃❤😚😚 #Halloweenanniversary. #103108 #103111

[learning-happiness-blog]

1. I love catching you smiling, the way you do, when you're looking at me. You make me feel like I really am made from stars, and maybe that's why you're always looking at me, too. 2. The way that you move entices me; how you say your words, play with your hands and wave them all around, when you're talking about something that passionately pisses you off. You are a forest fire living inside of a girl, and I am the pyromaniac in love with watching you. 3. You will always remind me of summer nights, when the breeze kisses your skin and the stars shine in the clear sky. You will always feel like comfort, safety, love, and you will always feel like "home." 4. Before you, I lived my life through white-knuckled fists and bruised ribs. A highway to a life within the distance of six feet. Now, I don't make enemies of walls and I look both ways before crossing the road. 5. You are my anchor. I am restless; I always thought that I could never be chained to one place, but you made me want to take off my running shoes and sit to watch the sunset with you. 6. I know that we've both had to stitch ourselves together so many times, that it's hard to keep it all together now. It's okay. Even with our patchwork souls and lingering sadness, I will always hold your hand in mine. 7. You're my favorite human being. By that, I mean that I would rather hold no one else's waist, have no one else's fingertips tracing my skin, feel no one else's lips against my neck than yours. 8. I love you. No thousands of words would ever do to describe exactly how much. But, my god, I love you: completely, unconditionally, irrevocably, and even when you're kind of an asshole. I love you.

She makes me feel alive again. b.l.

[learning-happiness-blog]

Personal

I'm really high and really drunk and I have no idea how I feel I just feel cold; why do I feel so cold?

[learning-happiness-blog]

I wrote this at work today after a long conversation with an older woman that reminded me that sometimes people love you only because you are not who they are trying to forget.

[learning-happiness-blog]

The Last Wednesday

I've been trying to write you a letter for 11 months now.

I've been staring at blank papers, keyboards, and phone screens; but I just can't find the map that leads me to my words.

In fact, I've been trying to write to you for 2 years now, because I never really told you what you meant to me.

So, this is my apology:

I am sorry, that I never looked in your eyes. I am sorry, that I always acted like I didn't care. I am so sorry that I let you go and I let you down.

On the nights when my monsters let me rest easy, I sometimes run away with you to the moon with no address; where our demons can't find us.

Sometimes, I dream of you

running,         

running,        

running.

And all the things that have been weighing you down can't catch up to you then. I dream of your blue eyes being happy again, and sometimes I dream of your lips grazing mine.

I am sorry, that I never told you I loved you. And I'm sorry that I keep saying I'm sorry. I just can't find a way to right the fact that I let the perfect timing with the perfect person go.

I hate the fact that you are under so many hardships right now, but more than that I hate the fact that our talking has turned as fluent as molasses flowing back and forth between, "How's the weather?" and "It snowed again…"

I wish I could go back to August 2011 and keep the promise I made to you, "I won't change."

The truth is, we both know 76 Wednesdays will wear you down until only a fraction of who you were is left.

I am sorry that, again, I can't finish this letter to you.

I guess we will always be unfinished business. 

It's time to move on.

[learning-happiness-blog]

Daily Haiku on Love #1

[learning-happiness-blog]

Written

I’ve read countless of books that tell of kindness and love. So, I tried to read the words, written in my veins, to see if there was kindness hidden in my brain. But I thought it wasn’t very helpful, when I started bleeding out I guess that’s why they say blood is a life source. Then I tried to read the words, etched on the bottom of a glass, but I took a couple shots first, so I couldn’t read shit. you know that you know that the largest snowflake ever seen Was 15 inches wide and 8 inches thick? Now, I live in Utah, so I know about snow, but I think the people would be freaked out to see such a fall. Speaking about falling, have you ever let yourself go? Have you ever closed your eyes and just not thought at all? I don’t think I have it in me, to be like a bungee jumper. You know how they jump without first a starting crawl? I’ve been talking to walls, because at least they listen. but I’d much rather be with you watching your eyes glisten. Will hold me when I’m too weak to stand. And life knows I’m the weaker man. I can’t cry and I keep wondering, Is that strength or utter loss? I’ve changed, and I know I have. I can feel it riddle my bones and ride my pulse. My sentences are getting shorter, and less complex. And my writing is a tangled mess, I’ve got no sense. I just hope that when we meet, There’s something better left of me. and more, I do implore, I hope you don’t give up on me.