#10th board

[soovues]

Bhai kisi bhi din ab result aa sakta hai to agar update na mile meri taraf se to samajh lena (⁠⌐⁠■⁠-⁠■⁠)

[admissionrkimt]

[she-rambled-but-they-were-true]

Ok the exam wasn't....bad, but it wasn't great either, I mean the majority of the paper was easy, I would say but then there were a few questions which took me a lot of time so much so that I had to the case study questions in the last 20 mins. I dunno If I'll be able to get above 70 my only hope is getting above 65, because if I don't....things are gonna be bad.

But either way, what is done is done. I am never touching science and maths again(except for the quantitative techniques)

Goodbye maths and science, fuck you I loved you once upon a time but never again...never again

HUMANITIES HERE I COMEEE

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[she-rambled-but-they-were-true]

I don't want to take tomorrow's exam. I have Maths tomorrow, which is my 2nd last exam and I feel like leaving behind everything and going to some lavender field and learning the ocarina from freckledzelda. I have prepared almost everything though the intro of trig is the bane of my existence. I feel so unprepared What if I get 39 or even less like I did in pre-board 1 what if I am not able to cross 65 and not get above 90, what if I do horribly and what if I go an I know absolutely nothing and blank out. I am freaking the fuck out and don't know what to do. My only paper is that the paper is as easy as the SSC paper or even as the science paper. Otherwise, I am gonna fuck it up bad.

Anyway there is no point in worrying now, if I didn't prepare properly then I wouldn't have got 60 in pre-board 3 right? If I can 60 in pre-board 3 I can get above 65 in board, right? that's what everyone says, I hope it comes true

[she-rambled-but-they-were-true]

BOW DOWN TO SURABHI MA'AM YOU PEASANTS(No offence to Digraj sir but like, ifykyk)

no, but fr , my paper went well, better than whatever the fuck my science paper was(it's ok I was unwell) but now comes Maths. I want to cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

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[she-rambled-but-they-were-true]

Surbhi ma'am will save me

save me surbhi ma'am

surbhi ma'am

surbhi ma'am save me

[she-rambled-but-they-were-true]

I feel like hitting myself over the head and just dying already. I have been lying and cheating my parents friends and family. I have been doing nothing the past few days and just lying and sitting and watching videos all day. Lying so much and whining about doing nothing, getting sympathy and support for my lies. I have been doing useless crap all this time I have my exam in 2 days and I can't bring myself to study even a single word, I hate studying, I hate giving exams, I hate feeling helpless, I hate feeling tired, I hate feeling the pressure to do well but not have the capability or the drive to actually act on it, I hate feeling anxiety for the papers, I hate the thought of waiting for 3 months before the results come out, I hate that I think that I did so bad that I may barely get in 70 when if I don't get 90 I disappoint everyone and my life goes to hell. I hate it I hate everything. Oh look, this bitch is whining again, she doesn't even study, who does she think she is to be saying these things. Oh, she doesn't even know anything. She is stupid and she's a liar, she cheats and wastes her time, and she doesn't work hard.

[she-rambled-but-they-were-true]

Well, something happened. I had a high fever yesterday and today and had to go to the doctor(Of course this happens in the middle of the exams). I got medication and some tests. Lol I'm so used to fevers and my pain tolerance is so high that at this point I was walking around with a 102 fever, the doctor said at first that it might just be stress but after checking my temp she was so surprised how I was walking around like nothing was wrong lol.

Either way I took meds and I took the exam this morning, honestly I could ave done wayyyyy better and there is a high chance of me not getting above 70 (out of 80) which is bad because that would affect my overall marks, I HAVE to get above 90 per cent ATLEAST.