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here’s some blurry photos of a robin above the porch chair :^)

[40-bee-07-daily-blog]

Dressed and stressed

[actual-llamadrama]

Considering that my auntie is Indigenous to the US, you would think she would listen to the indigenous peoples of Hawaii and honor their request/demand that people not vacation at the islands because of how poorly the the native residents are treated in their own homes.

Like most of the clean water is being used for the vacation homes and hotels and not being sent out to the rest of the islands leaving the native people with shit water.

But I guess it doesn’t matter when it’s not your land or sacred areas being abused by vacationers 🙄

[catkutku]

Fuck You and That Wall You’re Standing in Front of: A Conversation About Blasting Shit

[pugling]

Solitude is weird

Sometimes I listen to music and it makes me feel like I just want to get out and drive for hours. I love being alone and being in solitude but sometimes it would be nice to have some type of intimacy. We all need intimacy and I just miss having someone there for me. I do not know why I even miss that. Lets just admit being alone sucks. We all like our space we need someone to fill it in too. I feel like I want to be left alone but I just want someone there next to me. Eh human needs/wants make no sense and to distinguish the two is even funnier to me.

[eynibee]

tangina ang weak ko.

[onisrn]

right so immabouttajust say it all everything thats been happening in the past week or so nothing major idk i just wanna document my life and the good days idk just read

The good days:

so on saturday night after mummy was asleep apa and i watched 10 things i hate about you. its kinda been on my watchlist for some time but i never watched it. it was her favourite movie once apparently. anyway i thought it would be like a typical teenage movie yk like clueless and mean girls or sth which are good but yk, the same. bro it was hilarious. legit i was laughing. like yk sometimes in movies theres sth funny but youre not LAUGHING like loudly n ish. i was cackling i s2g. i lost it at the part wear bianca had to wear the belly oh my lorddd. it’s rare that theres movies that are just so incredibly funny to u and u dont know until youve watched them. one other one like this was catch me if you can (leodicaprio) omlll :’) anyway so we watched that while eating leftover chinese we ordered for dinner. it was quite late like 2 or 3 oclock. anyway i was sleepy i didnt go to bed apa slept on the floor in front of the ehater with the light on and i slept on the sofa for like an hour maybe less. we woke up and had nutella toast for sehri and fasted. i woke up at like 3 and yk when i wake up late even if i havent slept all night i just dont have aproductive day? esp if i’m fasting. i prayed zuhr and then idek how i legit studied till iftari and p much finished that day’s work. i do love me a(n unexpected) productive day. legit i could study econ all the time compared to business ah i love me some econ (ok not that much but yk). anyway we had iftari and then i cant remember what happened. anyway that was my last roza. 

i also remember having a bunch of productive days that felt littt:’)

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well not really just keep reading ive been having good days so yah

i have a question. do men boys members of the opposite gender yaknow what imma just call em men legit the guys in academy look 20 + and u kno pakkis with their beards at 12 doesnt help make em look young exactly and theres me at 16 feeling like a mouse. i mean i know im skipping aherad but people in a class lower than me, AS, look like they should be doing a job legot double my heaight wat.

anyway so my question is. are men inherently self entitled. like are they born with this cocky arrogance. does being a guy give them this self of self confidence for no apparent reason????????? sorry im pissed lmao. (aqlright ik im being mean not everyones like that etc etc)

so basically. idk if i wrote about him here, but theres this guy who’s like a teachers pet yk what that means at this age/if youre a guy at this age: acting as if teh teachers your bro and having i ish u not inside jokes with him what?😂 bro sit yo ass back down the teachers not your pal lmao. anyway he used to really annoy me in the beginning but then i stopped caring cause why should i and then uuuhh maybe for like 2 weeks i had a little bit of a crush on him haaa in my defense he’s probably shia and also little bit cute anyway. so dayt before yesterday the buziness teacher gave us back our tests and he and i were one of the few people who gave it and the sir had photocopied mine and given it to everyone to read because apparently my answers were really good pfft whaaat no hah yes they were i know they were thank u. anyway so the sir to him was like compare karo is mai kia hai jo tum nai nahi likha and he legit made fun of me like we’ve never talked and we’re NOT best pals okay bro and that ish doesnt happen here esp if youre a boy and its about a gal k.😂 he said sth stupid about me writing about frikking air hoestesses (IT WAS A QUESTION ABOUT AN AIRLINE COMPANY. THAT’S WHAT THE SIR SAID WAS GOOD ABOUT THE ANSWER: THAT IT WAS REFERENCED AND APPLIED TO THE PARTICULAR BUSINESS IN QUESTION.0 besides, i wrote air hosts not air hostesses. hmph. anyway then duhh all the jacka-s in my class laughed haha lol (im p sure most of them dont kow who i am. im p sure he DID know who i am). anyway so oncei figured out what a competitive arrogant ahole he may or may not be, that crush ended as soon as it started:) (yes, as soon as it started. two weeks isnt thaaat long okay. better than my record of three years haha tall one im looking at you anyway thats over shukar allah shukar allah). anyway, this other kid (or should i say MAN legit what is with all the pakkis my age they all look so. OLD) anyway this other kid looked impressed. at least someone in my class has sense. 😌 (ok i realise i may sound a tad arrogant so im one to talk but he (the ahole) didnt have a right to be. did HIS answer get photocopied and districuted in the whole class? i dont think so. its just a stupid test, why u gettin all competitive and spiteful calm the f down take a seat n chill bro thank u for your time. so basically theres this other kid who sits in the front row diagonally opposite from me and once like a couple weeks back the sir had left one of my answers i had given to check like on his desk or sth so i saw him reading it suring class. then the next day at the end of the class the sir was explaining my answer to me and what was wrong with it and he had kept my paper on the guys desk while he was still sitting there and he’s like yeh aap ne likha and i wasnt really paying attention cause i was seeing what the sir had written and then i was like haan and hes like kafi acha tha  hah thenks bro (even tho the teacher then went on to explain a list of stuff wrong with it but yk. iz cool.😂) anyway so then this time when the sir gave my answers to everyone he saw it was mine and looked back at me and you know that face that people dop when theyre like wow kia baat hai like you kinda tilt your head to the side and shrug yeah idk i wish there was an emoji for it. so before distributing them the teacher was like aik test huwa tha blah blah kuch answers thei jo bohot referenced thei (mine. he was talking about mine. ty ty settle down now settle down) and i wasnt sure who’s they were bc they couldve been mine or the cocky kid’s (he’s p good at business too. probably why he was getting all competitive. jeez) and then the sir started distributing from the sensible kid (lmao) and thats when he looked and did that shrug thing and then i knew it was mine haha what a relief if it was cocky kid’s idk what i wouldve done loll not be a cocky arrogant prick who makes fun of him bc im bitter i sure hope. when he wasgiven a copy of the answers i heard him go kis ka hai or sth hah hmm kis ka hai yours? no? lol. (im rlly mean lmao well so was he esp since i was crushing on him. ew. what if he finds out i was crushing on him😂 he would probably pull an aunt marge and just frikking float up into the air just not because of magic rather because of his inflated ego lmao. also you know why he wouldve floated and not sunk? because his ego would be made of no substance like air and hence he would just frikkin. fly away. bu-bye👋. hah burn 😂 oryt sorry ill stop being mean wow im so petty

so abbu’s in london rn. he got a job interview thing which was yesterday. he’s staying with chachu et al. now to find out the job result thing. aaaah i dont want to think  and imagine and hope if he gets it in case i jinx it but aaaah

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For dream

昨夜入梦 在一个房间，我看到你的日记本，封面全是线结，每个线结伸出数不清的杂乱的线头，彼此交错！你出现在房中，刚刚触摸到你的双手，有人突然推门进来，你迅速转身离去，我从梦中惊醒，已是凌晨5点多。 想着梦境，不知不觉又朦胧睡去。你再次出现在梦里。 我、你，还有两个朋友，坐在一起聊天。说到关于爱的话题，我话音刚落，你竟然深吻了我，浓浓的爱弥漫开来。我正惊诧于你的大胆，“嘀铃铃……”，我被电话吵醒，已经是清晨8:15。