#11.06.12

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I've never once in my life cried because I was happy. Until tonight. Nothing special happened. My girlfriend and I were sitting outside and she kissed me, we said I love you, and she went inside. I just burst out crying with a huge smile on my face. I was really confused at first but I thought about it... at this point, I honestly know that not only do I love her, I'm in love with her. There has never been a doubt in my mind, and now I know there never will be. I want my happily ever after with her. She's everything to me, even if I'm not everything to her. I hope that one day I get to put a ring on her finger and make her mine. I hope one day I can have a family with her in a big house. I hope one day I can give her anything she wanted. I want to be there to see her achieve her dreams, because I know she will. I want to be there through everything. I just want her to know I love her.

[journaldator]

(11.06.12/11:56AM)

You've been so happy lately. I finally have a little piece of mind that you are doing better. I am in love with your new spectacles. They suit you very much. I miss you. I have my phone on me a lot more. I'd like to think that maybe you want to text me just to check up on me so, even though that's unlikely to happen, I still keep my phone with me. I wait for a text from you. Please text me, Sofi. I miss you very much.

[therewasbrilliantlight]

Permanence

I don't exist Neither do you But the worries you worry about Worry me too. There's no purpose without love And there's no love without a heart Your dun eyes, well lit Rip me apart.

You don't know the affect The pull that you have The love that I keep I'll take hold of your hand And we'll run without reason From this life we can't stand. There's nothing left for us here It's freedom we demand. 

Since we can't change the world We'll warp the ones in our minds We'll keep all the memories And nullify time They have no say We have the right Cause you don't exist  And neither do I.

[therewasbrilliantlight]

Absolute

We're a mystery, you and I Something special Something great You're my personal form of escape From the burdens, from the weight They don't understand, They can't No, they'll never know So just be sure to kill me if you ever choose to go.

[loveletterstorafael]

Dear Rafael,

Good morning honey. I'm sorry if I was delayed with the letters. The past two days were hard for me 'cause of the break-up. It doesn't mean that I stopped loving you. It was just that I focused more on dwelling with the pain by crying and not expressing it. Anyway, we're now okay and I can tell you again how much I love you.

Fighting is tiring both of us. It does us no good for we always end up blaming each other. It's not how I wanted it to be. I only asked a little appreciation from you but you make a big fuss about it thus ending up in break-up. We never really learn right? We only make promises about not leaving each other when we're both okay but when things get tough, we forgot about the promises and focus MORE on the pain it brought us. Sad. But I know we'll be a better couple after every fight. :) Making up always promises us a NEW way of dealing with arguments.

Great day ahead! Sun is shining brightly. I just hope to see your face brighten up with joy as greet me with "Good morning honey." Anyway, that can wait. For now, just take a lot of good care on yourself. Eat well and sleep plenty. Hehe. Mwah!

I love you.

Love,

ME

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