#11.1.2020

[godsnameisjoy]

Bodily Disturbance

Date : 11 January 2020

Duration : 34 minutes at 11:00 pm

Depth :

Here is the unedited version of the note to self, written soon after the meditation session :

‘The heart felt awfully loud.

In total a not so great session.

Things did calm down towards the end but it didn’t go beyond the loveless effort at chanting.’

As postscript, I would like to add that back in Jan it would take effort to move the attention away from the heart’s beat. I would get locked with the rhythm to the extend that my whole body would move to the beat. That isn’t meditation. That’s getting as restless as the heart. It takes effort to disengage but it is possible.

[prosy-days]

January 11, 2020 - Day 206

Game day birthday party for a friend!

[csveronyka]

Niekedy si iba musíš pripomenúť, že všetko bude v poriadku. Možno nie hneď, možno nie zajtra, ale raz bude. Hovor si to toľkokrát, až tomu sama uveríš. Pripomínaj si, že ak sa veci zmenili, zmenili sa kvôli niečomu, ľudia sa mení kvôli niečomu. Musíš to nechat tak a pohnúť sa. Bude to ťažké, budeš sa cítiť osamelo, ale musíš to zvládnuť, čo ak bude už zajtrasok najlepším dnom tvojho života?