#11.16.2024

[everything-your-missing]

Oh my god… PLEASE, do not cut your hair

Quinn v. Blackhawks

[414graffiti]

Bay View, Milwaukee (passing by on the train tracks behind the E. Becher St. Wheel & Sprocket) - November 16, 2024

[xxdying-lightxx]

I feel like the person I want to be is not who I am now. I don't think I was ever really sure of who I was to begin with. There has always an expectation from someone else. An expectation from social circumstances that deamed me worthy only as long as I made sense. I don't make sense. I am a mix of twisted parts, some more confusing than others. I have a love for people and a joy for discovery but somehow am apathetic. There are parts of me simply depersonalized that comprehending a feeling is not possible or relevant. I wouldn't be able to articulate the feeling even if I felt it.

I know I am whole. I am simply human. Though the absence of feeling a shared humanity is lonely. Why do I even feel like I am the valley where things are and suspiciously are not human. Why do I feel like I'm the face who stares back with knowledge of the reflection.

I feel as though I've lost myself. The name I go by was his name and Max never had a chance to live. Atreyu knows him and knows how deeply I wish feel whole, they are still a part of me, they are still me.

[a-fire-left-unchecked]

Haven't posted here in a while, but so much has happened!

First off, I got out of a nasty home situation that I won't delve too much in to. But I've got my own place now and it's nice not having to rely on someone else.

Percival is fully grown and an absolute menace! He's still in his nibbling years and he doesn't know how to play soft yet, but he is an endless ball of love that helps me get through the day.

Work is still a shit show. Can't say much more than that, but it pays the bills until a better position comes around. Just gotta stick it out until then.

Been taking my health a bit more seriously recently. Finally went to the doctor and got back onto happy meds that I started today, so we'll see how much they help. Also will officially be getting on birth control and I'm trying to exercise a bit more (just ran a mile in 17:30 minutes!).

And last but not least, I've been getting back into fandom writing! I've made prompts and shared ideas, but I'm actually writing now. It's slow going, but I've got a bang piece that'll be posted in December.

To be honest, I've got a lot more to update beyond just that, but I'll wrap this up here. Gotta get back into the writing groove~

[todaysromano]

11.16.2024

Today, Romano wore a blanket like a cape around his home.

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