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Patrick Stump

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I don't know how people live their lives like nothing happened after losing a friend, parent or any really close loved one. I've lost so many family members but nothing compares to losing your best friend. I don't know how people get through this. I miss you so much baby girl, I'd give anything to see your face again. I wish you could either be down here with me again, or me up there with you. But I'm pushing on, because I know that's what you'd want me to do. Thinking of you always. Forever in my heart ❤

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11.18.15

I haven't posted in a while. I am taking my first final in exactly an hour and I feel extremely unprepared. I had an anxiety attack and broke down crying recently and two weeks ago because of the amount of stress I had towards the end of the semester. I feel like I'm juggling so many things btwn schoolwork, family, "relationship", friends, and BUJ_ that I have not been able to concentrate clearly and get so many C's and D's. This is not what I had during high school, when I had so much more on my plate than now with gymnastics and I was actually proud of myself that I had top grades in classes that were much harder than what I'm taking now. What happened to me? I feel like what happened was that I got extremely hurt at the end of sophomore year and I had depression that was not actually checked by a proper doctor. It went away a little without the use of one or medications, which I though would be ok but I guess not. Right now I feel as though there is nothing to live for. All I want to do is sleep in bed and not give a another damn about this world. I am so done with it.

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