171 days of the age 23 (46.8%) I think I’m going to write a post every time my nails grow out lol. It’s an easier and visually helpful way of keeping track of time. I believe what truly stopped me from attacking my goals last year, besides money being the primary issue, was that I didn’t keep track of where my time was going. Just like how people don’t keep in track where their money is going, I didn’t keep in track of where my time was going: consequently, I let a whole year pass by me working at my current job even though I told myself that this job was only there to help support myself while I use my time wisely to find a career. That was then but not anymore fam. These posts help me keep track of where my efforts are in life and if I keep them updated routinely and consistently, I believe I can sail my way through my life in the way that I want it. With that being said, there has been some good and bad news. The bad news is that things are actually getting worse at my current job. Ever since there’s been a shift in management and a lower pay rate/less shifts, workers have become lazy. Food is made late, servers don’t show up to their shifts, food and plates are dropped and destroyed always, Hell, even the MANAGER doesn’t show up to the shift. Unbelievable. I would like to be upset at the situation but it’s really of no use. I knew this situation was going to happen and frankly, because of how the management is set up, I have absolutely no say to what can be changed. No matter how much of a great server I can be, it’s not reflected in my pay, it’s not reflected in the managements eyes, and it’s not reflected in anywhere else. What’s the use of I work harder but then get less pay for it? So I have decided that staying at this job is just going to end up with me losing money, so I decided to find another part time. As I found another part time job, I began to reflect on my work and effort at O____ and how I can use those reflections to better myself in this other part time. One thing that came out of my experiences is that I don’t really get mad at when things go wrong anymore. I can take this as either a good thing or a bad thing: it’s a very good thing for me because I learned how not to get explosive and stressed out bc things don’t go smoothly, but I also think it’s a bad thing bc now it seems like I care less about the bad things that’s been increasingly happening in my workplace and there’s no one who can fix those problems as well. As I begin my other part time job, my goal is to really learn how not to be stressed out and upset about these things that are now obviously out of my control. Sure, I think it’s valid that I want to work in a work environment where everyone is doing their jobs properly and efficiently and are not lazy nor tardy, but that’s never going to happen in any work place I feel like. I also think it’s my job to report to the management when things like this happen, but if the management doesn’t do anything to help change the environment, then that’s something wrong with the people I work with and I cannot change that no matter how much of a good worker I am. It frustrating to work in that kind of environment but frankly there’s nothing left that I can do. Not only that, but this shit is going to happen over and over and over again no matter where I work. It’s just something that I have to learn in order to grow, which is the sad part. But now that I have that clear goal in my head, I am going to act upon it in my new part time and maybe tackle it yet again while I’m still here in my other current job.
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