#11.2.16

[todayinonedirectionhistory]

November 2, 2016

This video is posted to Instagram. Scott is a fan who was going through cancer.

A Niall selfie!! (Posted to Instagram)

Liam posted this to Instagram with the caption "keep working"

Niall with fans

Soft sleepy Harry on a flight.

Harry attended Kendall's 21st birthday party.

*I don't own any of these pictures or gifs so credits to the owners.

**this is a new project I am starting, so if I've missed any important things that have happened on this day please send them to me and I will make sure to add them to the Post.

***I am a Larrie so my post will include Larry moments, but I want to make sure to cover everything that happened.

[alltheselights]

thelovemagazine: Out take of Kendall’s 21st birthday by @theo123456 @kendalljenner #loveme17 💕

[brianajungwirthinstagram]

Waking up like

Briana via her IG | November 2, 2016

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Briana via her IG | November 2, 2016

[myrtlehurtlingthroughspace]

Wednesday, Nov. 2, 2016 (10:09 am)

It feels weird to know that I struggle with kindness and honesty- that I am so often angry and cruel. [Keaton] told me last night that sometimes we don’t like ourselves and that means we’re changing for the better. It’s kinda creepy that they are so wise. 

I’m reflective of my behavior because I was a real piece of shit at the Halloween party on Monday. It was at Amanda/Justin/Amelia/Ethan’s house and about 90 minutes in Alex and Katie showed up and Ethan got incredibly angry and walked out. I reacted by telling Alex to get out of there- I called him a weakling and a coward. Katie came to his defense and I said, “you’re both so fucking empty.” It’s hard for me to even write because I am so ashamed of that moment. It wasn’t even my fight- but I picked a side. I saw Ethan as a victim and Katie as a perpetrator and made it black and white. Then I absorbed Ethan’s anger and spewed it back at Katie.

 I called her last night and apologized. I told her she didn’t deserve that treatment and what I had said came straight from my own darkness. Now, over the last few days, I’ve been analyzing my anger and my behavior. I don’t want to be a punishing person. So now- as long as my relationship with Katie continues- I will prove to her that I am truly apologetic and never use my emotions to attack her again. Selfishness and cruelty are getting old. And guilt is useless. I can’t feel guilty, I must focus energy (otherwise wasted on guilt) on being a better person.

[alltheselights]

darac123 I know it's Wednesday, but a special #mcm shout out to @harrystyles, who used my phone to record this message of support for @scottselig, who starts chemo today... Thank you!!! #scottstrong @letsfcancer #fuckcancer #courage #friendship #love #fight #onedirection #beardown 😊

[onceaknickalwaysaknick]

[sleepingg-late]

Officially diagnosed with depression so I guess at least I know what the fuck is going on now