#11.29.15

[myquotebook]

I wanted everything because I didn't want anything enough

[myquotebook]

I found my passion for poetry when I lost my passion for people

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[bo0zey]

i love @jetpackblewsss so much. at the frnk concert they recognized me from tumblr and gave me free Frank gloves that was so sweet and kind of them my heart exploded!!!!!!!!!!!

[jennitaals]

Sunday, November 29, 2015

I remember how we used to celebrate each other’s birthdays together. We would have breakfast together, watch a movie, have dinner, and just have each other’s company. Unfortunately, this year, I couldn’t celebrate either one of our birthdays together. Although part of me was hoping I would at least get a “Happy Birthday” message from him, I realized not getting one was probably for the better. I already couldn’t stop thinking about him and missing him more than usual, and I couldn’t stop crying; if he sent me one, I know it would be even more painful for me than it already is. Although I haven’t given up on us, I’m just glad he’s happy and smiling now. His happiness and safety will always be what’s most important to me. I just wish we could celebrate all of our birthdays together like planned. No one will ever understand what I would honestly, seriously, do and give to be able to have that. Oh, how I miss him and love him sooooooo very, very, very, dearly... :’( 

[bo0zey]

WHEN EVAN WALKED ON STAGE I ALMOST STARTED CRYING HE HAD A FUCKINGG BEARD AND LOOKED SO GOOD I LITERALLY COULDNT BREATHE

[bo0zey]

also yes that was me waving and yelling evan’s name when he first walked on with Jared hart and it was worth it cuz he LOOKED AT ME and SMILED ((but didn’t wave back probably bc he was busy with a guitar u know??)) and i love evan Nestor so so much

[bo0zey]

i can't believe i made frank iero laugh like. yeah it was because i was being an idiot but. still. he LAUGHED. that tiny lil baby giggle of his was right in my EAR. and i got it on camera??? he literally like very rarely smiles in pictures and i got him to in mine?????

[bo0zey]

meeting evan nestor was actually the best thing like he was such a sweetheart im not gonna post our pic tho bc i look like a fucking lion lmao. but yeah so i saw him helping the stage crew and some girl was talking to him (Im pretty sure she was annoying him but he was still being nice about it lol) and I really wanted him to sign the drumstick I caught back in March so I ran up and was like “hi evan!!! can u sign this for me really quick??” and he was like really happy and went “sure!” so I reached over the barrier and he reached to take it and then he signed it and then I was like “can I get a quick picture??” and he was like “of course!” and hopped down from the stage and almost FELL omf and I was like “omg u ok??” and he just kinda laughed and then we took our picture and i thanked him and then just as i started to walk away he was like “get home safely!” and i wanted to DIE!!!!!!! so i told him “u too!” but inside i was literally dying like he didn’t have to say that!!! he didn’t have to jump down from the stage or wish that I got home safe!!