Its an hour past midnight, so technically its the 12th now, but I just wanted to come write a little reflection of the day.
They say today is about Manifestation. Well, I manifest that I will have nothing, but positive people in my life this year. Too often toxic people have slipped their way into my life some how. When they said keep your inner circle small, well i cut that shit even smaller. I have definitely figured out that if they will screw you over once, they will do it again, no hesitation. This is usually where I say, I hate everybody. Yes, i physically will out loud say, I hate everybody. It just comes out unintentionally, when im thinking of bad situations with people, several times a day usually.
Moving on to the reflection of the day. Well I woke up from horrid nightmares.Which reminds me, DO NOT put lapis lazuli under your pillow anymore dude! In the nightmares, both of our mothers had passed. It broke me to see my boyfriend cry & so heartbroken. What hurt the most for me was that, I could see my mom in my nightnmare, I could touch her & talk to her. I woke up & i couldnt do that. Shes still alive, but its just become so physically painful to be around her, Especially when she continues to hurt me. I made my boyfriend check on his mom & she’s good!
On to the afternoon. Its day 11 of our cleanse & it only gets more strict from here. We basically fast through out the day. We are allowed unlimited cucumbers & water of course, & 3 flex foods, & 3 power shakes. Which is basically fruits & vegetables & dehydrated nutrients your body needs but probably isnt getting on your typical daily diet. I found out we have actuall y been doing the accelerated diet, which is pretty cool I guess. To know I can do this/get through this. Today I had one & a half cucumbers, strawberries, avocado, & kale chips. This was my first time making kale chips & they tasted just like potato chips to me. I just nee to salt them less next time. I know thats not a lot at all, trust me im pretty hungry. We also take these supplements throughout the day & its going to flush out the parasites from our bodies. We forgot to do our 10 day check up yesterday, so we did it today. I have lost about 7 pounds & hes lost about 12 or more. Our goal isnt to lose weight though, its about health. The weight loss is most definitely a bonus for sure. I think it will help me feel more confident in my body. Ive lost 25 pounds in around 4 months. We went grocery shopping for the week. I can not wait for these 10 days to be over. 1 down, 9 more to go!
As for tonight. I put on meditation music for around 5-6 hours. I started off with a cleansing shower. I used a lavender chamomile tea bag with 3 crystals, rose quartz, clear quartz, & amethyst. Then I lit a spiritual & sage incense & some candles I made myself, turned on my Himalayan salt lamp. I wrote in my journals. I made affirmations cards & hung them on the wall & pulled a tarot cared that says, i have anxiety about money. I mean its not wrong, I have always felt that way. Im ending the night watching Trolls. & babe is going to bed with me!
