Feb1.21/Imbolc
Lately we have been staying up longer at night. My boyfriend has been more focused on his career/hobby, so that means long nights. I don’t like going to to bed without him, so I will fall asleep on the recliner, while watching cartoons. Waiting for him to wake me up and take me to bed. If I wake up and he’s not next to me in bed, I get a little anxiety. But from the recliner I can hear him doing his thing, that’s why I like it this way. Its much more comforting like that. We usually go to be around 3-4 am on weekdays and sometimes he is up until 5-6 am on the weekends. Today was a Monday so we had to work, but he was nice enough to give me the day off and take the work on himself. All though I appreciate it very much, I really I hope he knows that I am more than willing to do the work. Hmm...I just remembered I saw an explicit picture of a chicken on my phone and thats kind of around the line of work we are in, so maybe thats why he was being so considerate. That really was rough on me, I will never forget that image, I cried a lot. Anyways, back on track, since we have been going to bed late, we have been sleeping in. I woke up late to make the animal babies lunch. It was a little past 11am, which is when I usually begin making their meals. I even set an alarm for 8am, but it didn’t go off. I wanted to start the day off with yoga and meditation, which reminds me I forgot to meditate. So instead, this is how my day went after I fed all the animal babies.
First you know I had to start off with an avocado 🥑 and my green juice! Come to find out we didn’t have enough batteries for my wii fit board, so I had to hold off until he went to store and got some. I had a friend who said they might be coming by, but they didn’t come by. I scrubbed my bathroom down clean, it looks so nice and smells so much better! Got to love the good smell of bleach lol. I washed and dried our shirts. Wiped down the stove and counters. We watched some Undeclared, a show where Seth Rogen is in college. One of todays episodes had Adam Sandler in it, it was pretty funny. I spent some time coloring in my planner. It was a cold rainy day all day. I did end up doing 10 minutes of yoga and 20 minutes of exercise, after dinner.
Dinner was a disaster. My first day back in the kitchen and I failed already. We made Spinach Lasagna with white sauce. I did not research how to cook the lasagna noodles. I just threw them in the pot like any other noodle, what a mistake that was. I officially never really want to attempt to make this again. In my opinion it really wasn’t even that good and Im sure my boyfriend is just trying to be supportive at this point. He comes from a family that knows how to cook real authentic food. I however am talentless with no cooking skills, what so ever. Whether I mess up the measurements, burn it, or over salt it, you name it, I will ruin the food some how. It was the 2013 macaroni incident all over again. My family will never realize the damage they caused me and its truly sad.. Anyway my boyfriend, the optimist he is, remained positive the whole time. I could not help, but be upset with myself. When I am fussing at him, it makes me feel bad and I know it cant make him feel good either. Im not sure what it is and why I cant just stop being angry. I honestly feel like it has something to do with my hormones because I get such an adrenaline feeling from it and it fuels me with fire, I cant stand it at all. I really wish I was like my boyfriend and just calm and chill all the time, he is the coolest guy you could ever meet in your life. He took the horrid lasagna noodles & lined them around the pan and we stacked the toppings on layer by layer. Topped it off with cheese and put it in the oven. I only a little bit, he ended up eating some more of it, so that was nice of him, I really hope he some what liked it. Definitely not enough spinach maybe, I dont know. We may never make this again. I also made Fairie Butter, which is whipped butter, sugar, squeezed orange juice, and a splash of almond milk. Its actually pretty yummy, but I can only imagine how bad it must be considering its main ingredient is butter.
I made a Dissolution Spell Bath Mix and took a energy cleansing bath.
