anyways goodnight, I'll just be getting out of my first day of work tomorrow around this time so hopefully I dont kill myself afterwards you feel
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anyways goodnight, I'll just be getting out of my first day of work tomorrow around this time so hopefully I dont kill myself afterwards you feel
She walks into a room and all eyes are on her. They say it’s all in the eyes, right? Hers aren’t hardened by this cold world - kind, soft, warm, and inviting in the way the ocean finds it’s resolve after a storm. She carries the weight of the world on her resilient shoulders, balancing one step at a time and remaining composed even if she wavers. Footprints mark her past - she takes another step forward on her journey. She looks to the sun. Eyes closed. Smiling. The sun rays shine on her face. Someone like you is so hard to find.
kathy i’m gonna write about you
I think a good test of love doesn’t come when things change. There’s a saying that goes you are lucky if your lover loves you through the changes. But I think changes are to be expected and I think change can be exciting. More than anything, I think change can equate to growth and when you love someone, that’s more than you could ask for; to be present during this change - to witness your partner grow. To joke and maybe take some of that credit too. But rather, I think a good test of love comes when you face a place of stagnancy. When you tell yourself to get past something but your verbal instructions don’t seem to translate into movements that you feet can make. When everything else around you continues to change yet you’re both unable to do so for each other - whether it be due to your steel set ways or your very personal pride. The sad question becomes what if we don’t change? Implicit of what if we can’t(s). I think that’s a good test of love - not whether you can love someone through the changes.. but whether you can love someone when things are still the same.
It doesn’t matter if I’m alone or not, I’ve felt sad all my life. I’ve had periods of time where I felt less sad than others. But the thing is, I’ve always felt sad. And it didn’t matter if I was in love, out of love or being loved. My sadness doesn’t have anything to do with anyone but myself. I would just like someone who could acknowledge that without putting me on a pedestal but also without glorifying it, belittling it and/or ignoring it. I just want someone who stays through it, that’s all
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«(Really wanted to share this) If I ask you, “What do you want out of life?” and you say something like, “I want to be happy and have a great family and a job I like,” it’s so ubiquitous that it doesn’t even mean anything. A more interesting question, a question that perhaps you’ve never considered before, is what pain do you want in your life? What are you willing to struggle for? Because that seems to be a greater determinant of how our lives turn out. Everybody wants to have an amazing job and financial independence — but not everyone wants to suffer through 60-hour work weeks, long commutes, obnoxious paperwork, to navigate arbitrary corporate hierarchies and the blasé confines of an infinite cubicle hell. People want to be rich without the risk, without the sacrifice, without the delayed gratification necessary to accumulate wealth. Everybody wants to have great sex and an awesome relationship — but not everyone is willing to go through the tough conversations, the awkward silences, the hurt feelings and the emotional psychodrama to get there. And so they settle. They settle and wonder “What if?” for years and years and until the question morphs from “What if?” into “Was that it?” And when the lawyers go home and the alimony check is in the mail they say, “What was that for?” if not for their lowered standards and expectations 20 years prior, then what for? Because happiness requires struggle. The positive is the side effect of handling the negative. You can only avoid negative experiences for so long before they come roaring back to life. At the core of all human behavior, our needs are more or less similar. Positive experience is easy to handle. It’s negative experience that we all, by definition, struggle with. Therefore, what we get out of life is not determined by the good feelings we desire but by what bad feelings we’re willing and able to sustain to get us to those good feelings. What determines your success isn’t “What do you want to enjoy?” The question is, “What pain do you want to sustain?”» (via u.mi)
I stopped going to therapy because I knew my therapist was right and I wanted to keep being wrong. I wanted to keep my bad habits like charms on a bracelet. I did not want to be brave. I think I like my brain best in a bar fight with my heart. I think I like myself a little broken. I’m okay if that makes me less loved.
Clementine
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