#12.28.12

[gelisayshi]

It's been exactly one year since I saw The Killers back in Las Vegas. One of the greatest days of my life. Gunna watch RAH to celebrate.

[planetaryhelp]

Speri in una pillola magica che porti via il dolore, speri in una lama tagliente che porti via il rancore.

[diary-of-meeeeeee]

12.28.12

okay i totally skipped yesterday.

but that's only because life was hectic.

going to canada and shit.

mom's cooking all this shit.

my sister's packing all this shit.

me tumblring all this shit.

lol

oh well..

well i don't really have a lot of time, so i don't think i can do an update of everything that's been going on.

and also my mother is yelling at me.

so...

pregunta!

15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?

hardest thing to give up...

my hearing?? maybe..

or unless you were talking about something tangible?

then maybe my laptop?

haha yea i would not want to lose my hearing.

that's all folks.

forever sighing,

=.=

[iambushido]

12.28.12.GGG

WARM UP:

(3 Rounds for Quality of:)

300m Row

16 Lunge-twist

10 Good mornings

MOBILIZE:

FR: Lower back, Glutes

SKILL:

Push up position

[purenumbers]

12/28/12

|(12 / 2) - 8| = 1 * 2

Also:

12 / (|2 - 8|) = 1 * 2

Also:

(1 * 2 * 2) / 8 = 1/2

Also:

(1 + 2) / (|2 - 8|) = 1 * 2

[mkaayxromae]

I can't help but wonder if my parents think I've been depressed lately. Since lately I've been going to bed around 4-5am and wasting the days away. I must say I can hardly come to think of the truthful answer, much less the right one.

I am not in despair over someone. I am not in a trauma over an event. Yet I know I am not as happy as I want to be. I know that I could be making so much progress if I didn't feel so... lonely. Or maybe nostalgic. Or maybe not be so overwhelmed by what I have to do, that I end up avoiding it all completely.

It has troubled me deeply that I cannot describe this feeling I get when I'm alone. The feeling of staring up at my ceiling, and not knowing where I stand. Feeling everything and nothing at all. I claim I feel empty, yet what am I feeling tragic over? The fact that my life seems to have no real meaning anymore?

Retail therapy seems to only irritate me, with it's continuity shoving me broke. I'm too lazy to put myself out there if no opportunities aren't presented to me. I wanted solitude, I really did. Now that I have it, I don't know what to make of it.

I'm confident, I don't mind others' opinions of me. I still love people and all they can do. I still want to be wonderful. But sometimes I can't help but find myself staying up. Not being able to sleep for no reason. I claim my emotions to be unstable yet I really don't know how I'm feeling these days. When people ask me how I'm doing, I sincerely don't want to lie.

Maybe I just miss the enjoyment of one's company.

I don't know, I think I should just go read a book or two.