Feb 24, 2019
12.20.18
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12.20.18
For Today...
Today is a better day for me. I woke up early thinking about him once again and it was then that I realized that I didn’t say my prayers last night. I woke up asking for his forgiveness. I am so thankful that the Lord doesn’t hold grudges.
When I woke thinking of him, I wondered if he was thinking of me too. I thought about this for about 2 hours. I then proceeded to look up things that would hopefully help me get over you. I wanted to snoop on your social media, but I knew it wouldn’t change anything. I knew even if you did want to be with me that it wouldn’t work out because some things aren’t meant to be.
I found myself getting busy after thinking about you. Distracting my mind with things that would make me happy. Things that would make me, myself again. I know it probably sounds stupid. Sometimes I know it to be true. I found myself wondering if I had done something, one thing differently what would the outcome be? Would it be different? Would I be dragging out something longer than it should have been? I found myself thinking deeper (which seems to be my downfall in life)
What if I already drug it longer than it needed to be? What if he was really only suppose to be in my life for a season? What if, by thinking and trying to be with him that I lost my chance at true love? What if the time I used was wasted by negligence and stubbornness to make something fit that wasn’t suppose to? What if it was all for nothing?
As you can see, my mind wanders a lot. Like a lost survivor in search of refuge and food. Lost like I would never be found because at least I know what to expect. Nothing.
No regrets.
I hope we wont regret things in the future.
As long as you’re happy, i’ll be happy.
Have a happy life dayang. Thank you.
Never going back.
You lost me. I’m not going back to you. Never going to give you another chance. It was your choice so i’m just going with the flow. You made this so lets continue this. If you want to play then i’m on.
