I don’t make him laugh anymore. Or smile nearly as much as I used to. I can’t cheer him up. And we don’t seem to have fun anymore. My anger issues make him miserable and I can’t seem to get better fast enough. I’m trying so hard to be good for him. I’m trying so hard to improve myself. I’m trying so hard and it’s going nowhere. Will all we ever be is fiancé’s? I can’t lose him. But I feel like it’s only a matter of time. I don’t know what to do. I just don’t know.











