Dear Hae,
Hi!!!!
I'm so nervous right now because I just finished a job interview, and it was for a job that I really want to get!!! Because they pay okay but what I like is they pay weekly, which is what I need right now becauseeeee!!! IU CONCERT!!! hahahaha. but yeah, hhh.
You know how I'm kinda confident speaking and writing in english, but when it comes to job interviews, I stutter a lot!! like a lot!! and the english just goes away and suddenly I don't know how to english anymore! I don't know what to say anymore. :(( I was asked to share any personal stuff and all I said was since I dropped out of school I just practice graphics designing using photoshop and illustrator, and also read books and watch movies and kdrama. I wasn't even able to say that I am very interested in cetaceans and that I love dolphins and orcas!!!!! I hate it hereee huhuhuhu I hate that this is happening huhuhuhu I know I can do it, I trust my communication skills (I try hard, very hard, and I hope they know that and understand that huhuhu), I trust myself when it comes to work (nevermind the other aspects of life), I know I can do a job well even if I'm new to it. I may be a little jittery and anxious but I can do it, Hae, I know I can! :((
I hope they will hire me :(( They train from the ground up so I know I can keep up with that :(( I just need a job good lord Jesus :(( please I'm so desperate now aaaahhh
I'm sorry if I was ranting here in my letter to you. I just wanted to vent without having anyone read it because I'm scared I might be jinxed or something :( I just need a job it's so hard to be poor pleaaaase.
Hhh. Anyway!! I hope I'll get the job, Haehae. I know you wouldn't see this but please pray for meeee hahahaha. Please :<
But if I don't, then... okay... back to job hunting :(
I'll be okay!! I'll be fine!!! It's okay!! It's going to be okay!!.... right? Hay, I'm really so anxious. I don't know what I should feel. I'm hoping for the best but I'm scared to be disappointed at myself again. :(
Hhh anyhooo!! Enough with the yapping, I still have a doctor's appointment!
Bye hae! Thanks for being my outlet today! I hope you'll have a good day ♥
Always, Ky















