#15.8.2020

[pangarina-angelin-a]

Buon Ferragosto 🌸

[prosy-days]

August 15, 2020 - Day 57

Got some chores done today.

[godsnameisjoy]

Spiritual Eye opens Inwards ?

Date: 15 August 2020

Duration: 1 hour and 30 minutes at ~11:10 pm

Depth: Written on 16 August 2020, 10:00 am

So, I got around completing the three hour kirtan meditation that I had begun last to last night. What I found was that last night’s session was better concentrated upon than the night before last. And it had to do with knowing what to expect further on, in the semi-guided session.

It is so nice to go inwardly while there is devotional singing immediately outside. Every time one is distracted enough with the inbound direction, there is divine inspiration waiting externally. That is so cool. It is a foolproof condition to keep going with meditation.

When the concentration is supported in this manner, it gets easy to see why I came up with the stupidest spiritual question ever: ‘Does the door 🚪 of the spiritual eye open inwards or outwards ?’ I know that this question isn’t worth answering. What matters is how I got to this question. It has everything to do with the sustained and calm concentration that I have been experiencing with holding my attention at the point between the eye brows for the last two nights.

‘Never thought it possible but I have actually got a taste of surrendering one’s attention to the general space between one’s eyebrows. Brother Chidananda was right about the convocation supporting meditative progress. He was right about folks like me getting to the end of the convocation slightly altered, for the better.

[puregrief]

Prayer

Prayer

"We made a deal, oh god don't make me feel, I got addicted to us.

Darling you've been, my greatest defeat, so hate me to death if you must."

Keaton Henson explained, "'Prayer' is a meditation on the act of preparing to lose someone, in whatever form that takes. It's about the feeling of helplessness, and the realisation that there are no words you can say to someone before they leave that will make it less painful when they do, as much as we feel like there must be."

[puregrief]

لو فيه حياة بعد الكورونا فهتبقى بالنسبة لي اجتماعيًا أصعب فشخ، عشان أساسًا قبل ما كل ده يحصل كانت حياتي الاجتماعية مش موجودة فعلًا ودوايري محدودة فشخ، دواير ايه؟ هي دايرة واحدة واللي فيها قلوا فشخ كمان، فيعني أنا خايفة والله أفضل كده للأبد.