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Magia Rapport - Day 16

Feb 16, 2020: Who is your favorite of the forest-element girls and why?

Couple of good options here, I love Sana’s design a whole ton so she gets a shout, and Kaede’s also been in the anime so I kinda know her and like her moe, but my actual answer, again MagiReco originals only, would definitely have to be

Alina Gray! Another girl who’s not been in the anime and I don’t read the stories so I don’t exactly know what she’s about, but I know she’s like all sorts of kooky and crazy and delightfully fun, and she has one of my favourite designs in MagiReco by far. Plus Ayana Taketatsu voices her, which is pretty fucking epic.

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@meme-emperor and Sam and I watched the first 9 episodes of Magical Girl Site, first rewatch for me, Sam managed 4 episodes as it was airing, and then it's entirely new for @meme-emperor . And fuckin, god am I so happy to finally rewatch my most least best worst favourite show of all time. This show is like the most exciting car crash you'll ever see, every single way in which it's bad is so bad in such ridiculously appealing ways, and yet there's also a decent amount of genuinely good things about the show, like even if the execution of those things absolutely falters way more often than not, they're always good enough to be respectable. I'd actually say that in rewatching this show I've come to like it more, and like I already quite liked it so that's a thing. As such I've actually upped my score from 4 to 6 and uh, yeah that's a thing. Anyway yeah end post.

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Anyway we goin home, don't think I can immediately anime because if early uni tho, which sucks

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Sucks that he died lol

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It's a nightmare and I don't want to even reflect on this. I don't give a fuck what I've contributed to this mess and the fact that it happened today. I just am so enraged that just because I and everyone else lets her go on her rant and walk all over us whenever she feels like it she thinks she's entitled to do it.

Fine it's our fault for not nipping it in the bud but we all know it's a futile attempt since she will always find a way to have the last say regardless and truly I cannot be bothered to correct her sometimes it is better to let her say her piece and give her that moment so i can have the following moments to do productive things instead of futilely trying to prove anything to her.

There are so many things wrong but you know what I don't think this relationship is important enough for me to try and fix anything. I don't think she wants help anyway. She just wants it her way. And i just had it today because I was not taking any of her bullshit.

Should have been stronger and tampered it down but hey it's been a hard period. Am just gonna avoid this whole fiasco in the future. There is no way out of this. There's no pleasing her and there's no way she's ever gonna be satisfied so there's no way I'm gonna go out of my way to prove anything to anyone.

Want to know what's going on in my life? Well think about what you did to prevent that from happening. If you're always going to compare with what other people have, you're never gonna be happy and you're going to lose what you already have. And you've probably already lost it.