Feb 18, 2022
18.2.2022: Schneeglöckchen
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18.2.2022: Schneeglöckchen
February 18, 2022 - Day 244
Friday beer.
GOOD COP BAD COP
Date: 18 February 2022
Duration: 45 minutes at 10:39 PM
Depth:
My body shook involuntarily through all of these 45 minutes. Despite the shakings, could I have carried on long enough to complete at least an hour of meditation? That would be possible only if I hadn’t caught 40 winks right before meditation.
As far as bodily shakings go, I had evidence of meditational progress. Thank God, thank Guru. My shakes, last night, were not what I would call ‘mild’. I wouldn’t call them absurdly ‘strong’ either. They were strong enough to be the highlight of the session. I even tried observing the point where the force to shake emanated from.
Upper spine is where life energies were dissipating into shakes. The point of dissipation is now above shoulder level. Since March 2020, the centre of dissipating energies has moved from the tail to shoulder level along the spine. Now in February 2022, I am praying for these benevolent energies to pool in my head. I am also hoping that the pooling process will put an end to distracting involuntary shakes.
In terms of quality, this isn’t a session I am proud of. I know, from years of practice, that allowing the mind to sleep before meditation is a bad idea. The subconscious shouldn’t be studied for its content. Dream imagery is a manner in which earthly desires are fulfilled.
These desires show up in every waking situation you find yourself in. The celebrity you like, the celebrity you dislike. Your ability or inability to add and drop good and bad habits is a reflection of a variety of desires with differing strengths.
When I was struggling to get past the deep end of my subconscious during ‘subconscious phase’ of my practice, there really was just one thing I was dealing with. I struggled some years back. I figured out that the subconscious shenanigans lies in creating colourful and entertaining imagery that keeps one’s mind sleeping. The strength it applies is in keeping you sleeping. The amount of strength is incredible. One’s attention has the perfect muscle building mental gym in the subconscious.
The subconscious should be studied for its strength. The desires that supply such strength come next because they lie at a mind layer beyond the subconscious. One deals with strength of desires in the subconscious before facing off with desires. I am no expert in psychology. My understanding of the science is that it deals with expressed desires.
The strength of subconscious influences one’s attention into the thick of intuition as well. After a minutes long nap, I seem to deal with an attention weakened by the subconscious. So I was sitting up in meditation unaware of my subconscious wanting me to sleep. I am usually meditating at least this far from the subconscious and well inside the intuitive sphere.
Yet, my attention could bear with only so many distracting bodily shakes. Despite Peace in the intuitive sphere, I could last only 45 minutes with a weakened attention. I have a feeling that there is a lot of cleaning up for me to do before Peace reigns and desires are thrown out.
فيه حاجة كده كل ما بتحصل دماغي بتشتغل فيها She knows, and I know she knows, I know she knows! يارب جيب العواقب سليمة يارب!😭
Today.
The bells you hear are the cows walking back home. Also so peaceful and quiet.
The symbiotic organisms could need more than a million years to adapt to just 1 degree Celsius of warming, a new study suggests
في مرة هكسر سناني من كُتر الجز عليها كل ما بتكلمني/بتكلموني والله. أنا في مخيلتي دماغي انفجرت 5 مرات واحنا بنتكلم أصلًا.
What kind of man loves like this? يا راجل ده أنت عرِّيتنا!