#2-16-16

[365-thoughts-daily-blog]

Maybe it's history and not people who make someone stay... Maybe someone would rather stay just because they don't want to throw all of it away.

47 of 366 // And maybe that’s why I stayed.

[dontwantyouback]

[thepolitestalker]

This is really embarrassing please don't laugh

But I have this stuffed animal for at least 10 yrs and she was my closest friend for a long time. Recently for some odd reason my oldest cat(about 13) has been moving her round in different spots, normally I don't think anything of it since this action is pretty normal for her ( normally she moves socks) but just now I've found my precious Kitty (the stuffed animal) out of place but the stitching on her mouth has come loose. It's not completely pulled out but it's not the normal tight spot like it used to be. I'm honestly really heartbroken. I really wanted to keep her the same way she's always been. It's like when someone you love so much they have no imperfections changes. They're still the same person they've always been just with a slight change, but that change is gonna bug you for the rest of your life and all you can do is get used to it. I'm honestly so devastated right now. If anyone read my post about my idea of getting a tattoo of my stuffed animal, this is the stuffed animal I'd get the tat of. Except when I do I'll make her face the way it was before today. I'm honestly crying right now I'm so pathetic

[clockworkcreatures]

I keep like tearing up but I think it's just because I don't know what to do with my emotions right now. Like they are all over the place, but happy all over the place.

[luckyleolion]

I like how I worded that because libras relationship towards me has been bothering me and I think I figured it out earlier today I jus didn't know why or how to explain it until tonight. And it makes me feel better about it all because it makes sense.

[luckyleolion]

Okay so ive been thinking about how libras should be leos best friends. Theoretically. And it made me really think about who I am friends with who I have dated and liked talking to while dating.

So I have my best friends. Scorpio who is literally me as a dude. And me and him have the same mind. Like with tiny tiny differences. And we are great together we are on the same wave length of weird and cute and nice and rude. Like its perfect. Even me and cancer have this weird connection where we are identical in a really large amount of things and opinions. We judge people the same we like to do the same things. We feel the same way. We are extremely comfortable with each other but nobody else. I can have the same sense of humor with both cancer and scorpio although they are different to each other I have them both and enjoy them equally.

On the other hand though, people who I like to date and am attracted to are not even the same thing as me. They are Saturn’s rings while im everyone's voice only when they mispronounce "Pacific ocean" as "specific ocean". Like we have nothing to do with eachother and about nothing in common. Like maybe maybe we might have one thing but its so tiny and random its nothing. But im attracted to that because its a mystery its new and interesting and different than me so I won’t get bored.

While libra is similar to me but different. And you would think that could be a good thing. A good combination. But for some reason its not. Like we have a good amount in common…a really good amount. But we also have a lot of differences that are rather big. And its like im lettuce and he is chocolate ice cream. We are both foods, people eat us, but we are meant for different diets almost. Different times of the day. Never together. And jus because you love one doesnt mean you love the other.

I jus found that rather strange. Because I jus…I thought I was attracted to him at first because how different he was than me but then I got to know him and he is very similar so I thought maybe me and him could be friends but….I dont think so. I feel like im forcing it with him. Because in theory I should be attracted to him and think of him as a really good friend. But in actuality im starting to think I dont want him as either.

[luckyleolion]

Im happy. And I dont want to date anyone really. But I mean...I could we myself dating him I guess? Like I get this feeling like I can be comfortable and cute around him and not feel like im forcing it. Lets compare him to ex taurus and ex scorpio. In a way he is a mixture of the two...it seems like he has the attitude of both of them but like its weird...i feel like he is more like scorpio than taurus though. He is serious, quiet, and acts his age for the most part. It feels like he and I are rather different but so were me and scorpio...by like a lot. He is violent like taurus. Likes to move like taurus. And its weird because when he would smile it felt like with taurus and scorpio. Because they both rarely smiled and it would feel like yes I accomplished something great. And with his it feel that way too. Like I wanted to make him smile. It seems to me that this Capricorn is a lot like scorpio. Hopefully this doesnt turn as bad as it was with scorpio though.

[luckyleolion]

Okay so I went on the date with the guy who woke up late this morning. We jus rescheduled it to tonight. It cost him about $50. He payed for it all no hesitation. He is very...different? And I want to say in a good way...I think I could see myself with him. He is a nice guy. An opinionated guy. And he isn't loud. I think he'd be down for another date, honestly im down for another one. I kinda like him. Im not overjoyed but im not grossed out or feeling anything else that could be considered bad. Today I went to help Libra with some math and he talked and honestly...I felt like he is so rude and kind of annoying....like the only thing in my opinion that he has got going for him is that he is cute. Literally only thing.