#2.19.25

[avi--arts]

2.19.25

Was hanging out with some friends and had a moment where I realized I was a human being and got a horrible aching feeling that my friends called

“Surprise Therian Dysphoria”

[edo-vivendum]

I have ARFID. For the most part it's under control (after working intensely on it while I was in ED treatment for both ARFID and anorexia). I eat a wide variety of foods and even try new things (sometimes). My husband has been a fantastic supporter through the years in pushing me past my comfort zone (which has been completely necessary). At this point, I can independently push past mental discomfort, but sometimes I still have a physical reaction to certain textures. This used to be a source of contention between my husband and I. He was used to me trying to get away with not eating something (cause again it was anorexia + ARFID not just ARFID), so if I told him I couldn't eat something he'd push me "just two more bites" etc etc...sometimes I would push through and this led to growth but other times this would lead to me being completely overwhelmed and crying.

Well, today I realized he finally trusts my instincts around food. He cooked me risotto, chicken, and roasted cauliflower today. It tasted really good, but I was struggling with the chicken's texture. I'd gagged a few times. I'd eaten a reasonable amount, so I asked him if I could put the rest of the chicken in his bowl. I said "I've gagged three times at this point." He immediately responded, "well then it's a good time to stop" and passed me his bowl to claim my chicken.

Y'all let me tell you. I felt so supported. I felt like he understood. He trusted me. I have loved him for pushing me in the past (cause I truly have grown so much) but for him to also respect my boundary so clearly and kindly made me feel so good.

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Briana via her IG story 🖤

February 19, 2025

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Briana via her IG story 🖤

February 19, 2025

[kontadodju]

The other day I started working more on a jojos OC concept - these’re my sketches so far 🙏🏽

User’s name is Darnella Mack and his stand is Lockjaw (from Sir Mix a Lot’s song of the same name).

I’m liking how she looks so far but I’m not sure abt how I wanna go abt designing Lockjaw - I like both of these but idk idk cuz like, ion be designing non-humanoid things like that yeah?

[kontadodju]

Another Wednesday completed

[kontadodju]

Grown Tsurugi concept from November that I wanna get back to

[purenumbers]

2/19/25

2 - 1 + 9 = 2 * 5

Also:

(2 + 1)! = 9 + 2 - 5

Also:

2 * 1 = 9 - 2 - 5