Today I deleted everything on my profile of Nick and pretty much most of my photos. I did not delete our relationship status though... I just feel like it’ll make it worse. I saw NIck go online right after I changed my profile picture and I just can’t imagine how he feels or how I will feel when he changes his picture. Will he change his picture?
I am also resonating with a lot of songs these days. I did not think so many songs were related to breaking up, but I guess that is what people go through a lot.
I told everyone who should know about my break up already and it feels better I guess now that they know they won’t ask me where Nick is and they will be more conscious of what they are saying and same goes for me.
This is for the better I guess... I thought we could get back together but the more I think about it the more unlikely it becomes. I just think we broke up for a reason and after 5 years of that reason I really don;t think that will change.
Everything I look at or watch reminds me of him. Especially Ben from Parks and Rec. He is so nerdy and cute just like Nick. Part of me really feels like I am missing out. Maybe couples are not meant to be 10/10 perfect and lovey dovey all the time. Especially with the movie Irreplacable You when she was trying to set him up with girls and the guy was talking about how he wanted someone who liked to dance ballroom and go hiking and the girl disliked both. That is essentially Nick and I. Which proves my point that you don’t have to be 10/10 alike to be together, but I guess the reason we broke up is that we did not really enjoy anything together that involved leaving the house.
I really hope Nick is doing okay... I had to fight the urge to talk to him.... and I feel like I have been doing worse this weekend than I had been doing three days ago. I cried multiple times today and have just been moping around. I do not know when this will end and sometimes I feel like it won’t ever end.