#2020me

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[kkkklorraine]

Writing this on the 3rd day of my acad break. ;D

Honestly, sobrang badly needed ng break na to. In a span of a few weeks, a lot of things happened to me.

We experienced flooding dito sa bahay. As in malala. Hanggang leeg sa kalsada and hanggang bewang sa loob ng bahay. Tbh, we were very lucky because our bedrooms were elevated so we were able to save a lot of stuff. However, almost all of our neighbors naman lost everything.

The flooding happened nung Nov 1. And thankfully nasa reading break ako n'un so i didn't have to worry much about school work... ish. You know me, i'd NEVER not worry about school haha. The week after that, I still wasn't ready to attend online classes. In terms of logistics, yes, ready na. Our house was cleaned after 3 days kasi di naman masyado nadumihan ang bahay. But mentally and emotionally.... I still can't. I made excuses so I'd not be required to attend my monday classes. Tuesday naman, my dog got sick. I would've been able to attend classes na sa afternoon pero I told them na wala akong internet kahit meron naman. I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I thought na I went through a lot for the past week and maybe I deserved to slack off and rest kahit papano?

A week after, another typhoon naman. We were lucky na hindi na sa amin dumaan yung bagyo but also very sad for everyone that got affected. Although hindi man kami directly affected, it still took a toll on my mental health. This is why I am very thankful sa break na to. I know I might not have been able to attend classes and do my work properly kasi I was too distracted. Sobrang hirap ng panahon na to for all of us.. Honestly, I can't even write this blog post properly kasi jumbled lahat ng thoughts ko. But anyway, I hope and I pray na everything gets better soon... please haha.

[kkkklorraine]

I have a ton of things to do but tbh all I wanna do is binge my shows. It’s been 2 months since online classes started. We’re also at the last few days of my 2nd shift. I’m over it. I’m so tired of all the homework and lectures that I have to study. Sobrang low yield pa. I feel like walang kwenta naman lahat kasi dapat clinical na to. The purpose was to learn how to treat and manage patients. Parang ang useless kung puro hypothetical patients naman. Anyway, I don’t have a choice lol. I’ll just get back to studying.

[kkkklorraine]

Week update ;)

I wasn’t able to write anything at all the past week lol. I got busy playing the sims 4 :< I also have a lot of customers for my business lately so that kept me very busy. We’re also doing lots of promotions. It’s a good way to distract myself from the reality lol.

My classes were supposed to start on Sept 10 but we weren’t given the permission to hold face to face classes so now I have to stay at home again. Which is kinda a good thing since I’m honestly not yet ready to go back to Manila and live alone. After 6 months of being at home with my family, I know I’ll definitely get homesick.

There’s a lot of debate whether or not we should hold f2f classes. But for me personally, I’m willing to enroll. I just want to graduate already.  It might seem a little foolish because people think I’m sacrificing my health for it (and I am; but I’m not stupid, of course I’ll be careful). I just hate that a lot of people think differently of me whenever I tell them that I’m thinking of enrolling.

I have this friend who lives in Visayas and she won’t be able to attend f2f classes (travel problems, etc). She spent A LOT of time convincing me and high-key shaming me for thinking of going back to school. At first I thought she was just concerned for my health but tbh, now I see it as her way of stopping me from getting ahead of her. How selfish. I already had a falling-out with her even before quarantine. Even at the start of the semester, I wasn’t talking to her much. I just had enough of her toxicity. I actually thought I’ll get over this during the quarantine but all the things she’s done during the past months just makes me realize how bad and toxic of a friend she is.

[kkkklorraine]

I’m writing this while I’m in a very boring zoom meeting lol. Thesis 

[kkkklorraine]

I started writing my blog post about our break up but I can’t finish it today. After reading our past emails and texts, I cried a lot LOL It’s been a YEAR and we got back together. Why am I so emotional still :))

[kkkklorraine]

Been looking for shows to watch sa Netflix and tbh marami akong ongoing na pinapanuod pero wala talaga ako sa mood :/

[kkkklorraine]

Let’s start here.

I’m going to start with a short summary of my life. This’ll also help me decide about what I wanna write about more :)) P.S. Pardon my poor writing, literal na didn’t use my brain since quarantine started lol

1. I now have a dog. Her name is Honey. She’s a shih tzu mix and she’s the love of my life. <3 Super kulit at lambing!! Definitely one of the reasons why I’m happy.

2. My boyfriend and I are still together. (6 years and 7 months!) A lot of things happened (which I am DEFINITELY going to write about soon) but we’re staying strong. <3 our almost 4 years of being in a long distance relationship really prepared us for this quarantine lol

3. I’m still in uni, studying to become a dentist. Our batch was supposed to graduate this year but SHIT HAPPENED. And no, I’m not just talking about the pandemic. Again, this is a story for another day ;)

 (...kinda running out of things to talk about here LOL my life is boring....) 

4. I like BTS now. They make me happy lol whenever I’m sad or anxious, I just watch their videos and it’s guaranteed that I’ll feel better.

Welp, I guess this is it for now. Wala na talaga akong maisip hahaha. I HOPE that I’ll continue writing blogs T_T