2025 Goal Recap
Before I go deep into reviewing my last year, I found my goals for 2025 and wanted to recap how this year went. -Find more balance this year. The last two years especially have been near burnout, non stop, always so busy. Now that we're married, I want to settle in & really take some time. Get into a good routine, healthy balance & get back to the things that bring me joy. I feel like this might be a goal of mine for the rest of my life. I don't feel I got too much balance, but perhaps a few periods of time of balance. This year was still quite busy and my quiet time I feel was more trying to manage burn out and being too tired to do anything so I don't feel like I balanced much. I also feel like this year might be hard to balance with what this 2026 brings, but I might add this for my 2026 goals, we'll see.
-Read 12 books this year, while finishing the last ones that I've picked up which I didn't finish last year. Still did not pick up last years books! How crazy is that, I've thought about them a lot this year but didn't. Including audiobooks, I've completed 16 books!!!! Wow thats amazing. I know I got through audiobooks fast but wow I'm actually so surprised! It was good year.
-I want to focus this year on bettering myself & really working on my triggers & how I'm showing up for Coleson. I.E How long it takes me to come back around from being frustrated, crushing my negative thoughts before they overcome my mind, speaking up more on how I'm feeling & how it's affecting how I show up, being more slow to anger because I know there's been some times this last year that I really let that overcome me & I'm not happy with how I was, communicating more how I'm feeling & not let it boil over into something bigger, stop making up narratives in my mind about Coleson & assume the best of him, be more decisive, allow space to explore deeper what might be the issue when something arises (especially when Coleson can tell & asks what’s wrong, not just saying nothing but either taking time to figure it out or explore talking about it), believe the truths when they’re said, drop the pride when in a fight when I know I’m wrong or acting not Godly. Well crap. I knew when writing this I had such good intentions. I can say that I feel like I've improved. I know during my cycles theres definitely times where I'm still really bad at not letting the emotions fester and build, also bad at calming down faster. But I know there has been a lot more communication in trying to speak up when something small triggers me & coleson has been a huge reason for that in continuing to keep the communication open & asking/saying he's open to talking if theres any tiny thing. So I'd say I have grown, more so in the last maybe 4 months than the rest of the year but there's been progress at least. -I hope to continue to build into others, even when they might feel distant, I don't want to keep falling into the "well they need to put in effort too" but instead reach out, or face things by asking if I feel like someone's pulled back. Stop making up a narrative about others & allow them to show up. I forgot I wrote this, I feel like I've actually done pretty good with this! I repaired my friendship with Sasha just the last 3 months which is nice. I feel like I can't recall those feelings towards any friends this year. This year was pretty good about constantly having a time booked with family and friends, so I do feel like I've done well with this one. - I want to build more with some others around here like Larissa, Kenzie and D more. A little bit. I feel like I haven't gotten much time with D this year at all but with Kenzie yes, we've spent some more time and I definitely want to keep this for next year. -I'd like for us to find a church & to plug in, actually do some more activities in the community. Unfortunately I haven't done this. This year was just so busy that I feel like we didn't get to church much. I wanted to join more activities but this year circled a lot around making sure coleson & I had time together.
-Read the bible in a year! I did not complete this, BUT I did get maybe 40% of the way? I really lacked on weekends & when things got busy. But I've been keeping it up & am continuing to read.
- I want to start making some sourdough and buns, maybe even get into making pasta! This is exciting because I did start making buns this year. They're not as good as mama D's but they're better than I expected. I also have been making my own lasagna soup and noodles, though I'd like to make spaghetti more. One day I'll attempt sourdough. I did make pretzels twice too.
-I’d like to learn something this year, some sort of skill. Not sure what, but I want to learn something new. Hmm I can't think of anything on the top of my head for new that I learned other than making pasta.
-I need to fully forgive meliss for how our relationship changed & what happened last year. Interesting. I've not really allowed myself the time to work through this. I do feel like I'm not as bitter or upset as I was maybe this time last year, but I'm sure there's a lot more there that I could forgive & work through.
-take more time to actually write, not let 3 months go past. The start of this year probably wasn't that good but I think mid year I actually switched to my journal app which I was writing probably every other day at least. Not that it was good because I started it as using it to track the negative, so hopefully that will change moving into next year.
-celebrate our 1 year anniversary We certainly celebrated! I think God was pretty amazing by making it on a Sunday this year so we didn't work (in the heart of harvest season) so that was special. We exchanged gifts, went for a nice dinner & movie. We even celebrated my birthday which was good. We also went on our honeymoon to Curacao so this was really great!!
-expand my green thumb, I’d like to have more house plants, but also to start some sort of garden. I did not start a garden, although I did have 4 tomato plants that were a big success! So I guess I did do this. I got more plants as well and have been doing great with clippings & propagating so that's awesome. The garden though will probably be the year after next once we settle down in the new house. Though I did get one of those little garden things for the table for christmas from mama D so I think I'll grow some herbs and want to grow strawberries this year.
-truly grow my confidence & self worth in God & how he sees me. I feel like I might have grown a bit in small areas but not as much as I'd like to have seen or feel this year. Definitely on for next years goals.
