#22:26

[midnightfreesprits]

Erken ölüyor çoğu insan bazen umuttan

[radiorecs]

[glimmerofawesome]

[biragacgibitekvehur]

[hedonist-aesthete]

Done in service of child/teen me, who would’ve been absolutely psyched to draw himself in his favorite piece of media. 100% self insert, to the point I’m not even bothering to come up with a name. I wanted to, so I did.

I’m very mad that I have yet to run into a game that allows me to use a non magical staff in combat (Kingdoms of Amalur came SO close with the kobolds, and I guess SWtOR counts, but you have to be a Force user), but that’s genuinely probably what I’d use in a fantasy setting. BRING POLEARMS AS HEROIC WEAPONS BACK

[everyday-effing-therapy]

20/08/19

Hello my loves,

I am back. Somehow happy, yes, but definitely not that well.

To start things off on a good note, I wanted to admit that my trip to Ukraine was really good, somehow fun, but also, I wanted to point out that today I managed to pass my theoretical test for driving license and I was super happy in the morning. Stress changed into happiness in literal seconds and although I wasn’t ecstatic, I was certainly relieved, to say the least.

Basically, on Tuesday (which was 13/08, oh, how the time flies), me and my friend went to see that movie in the park. That was after the blood donation and I felt somewhat okay at that stage.

We liked the movie, felt really emotional during it and afterwards we came back to my house to sleep.

Early in the morning her dad arrived to take us and set off to Ukraine. We travelled for some time, taking another friend of his. Although the trip itself wasn’t hellishly long, we still arrived later than I expected and we did have problems with the apartment, just like last year. We solved them, of course, but that didn’t stop us from being somewhat grumpy.

The trip itself was really nice. We ate like kings, did some sightseeing like last year, checked out some new places and overall, had fun. After three days we passed the border, which also cause some trouble, but thankfully all worked out well. 

In the next city we arrived in, there were still apartment problems, which left me truly outraged. After all, how many apartment problems can one withstand during a five day trip. Everything worked out in our favour again, though. In that town, me and my friend spent time together, while her father and the fried of his were taking part in a tournament. We took walks around the city, visited our favourite spots, tried to see some new ones, went shopping where I went absolutely crazy and in the end, just tried to enjoy our stay.

Obviously, it wasn’t always perfect. We didn’t argue, no, but there were moments of not knowing what to do, feeling somewhat bored or just somehow self-depricated. I guess I was tired when I came home, in all shapes and forms.

I also have to admit that I felt some shoulder pain from the second or third day of the trip. I watched myself closely, but noted no visible difference. Only today, when I was changing shirts and my grandma was in the room, she saw some strangely looking gross spots on my back. I went to the doctor an hour ago and it turned out that I am sick.

I can go on holidays, which makes me happy, but well, when I started putting some medicine moisturiser that I used the last time something weird happened to my skin, I was hoping that it would pass in two days, like the last time. Now it looks like that might be my case for the next month or two and the back spots will remain being there for the next week at least. I hope that they will start going down fast and that nothing else will happen, cause when I started reading about the sickness it worried me like crazy.

I got some crazy amounts of medicine, one for the sickness itself, one heavy painkiller, one for the swelling and one for my stomach, so that I would be actually able to digest all of that.

I even set up a reminder, to be able to remember all of those pleasantries.

Apart from that, today’s morning actually started out well, with me going to the exam room, passing said exam, then coming back home, visting my grandma, taking her spare suitcase and coming back to my home. Then there was the whole back situation, I went to the pharmacy, bought some cream for that, bought some broccoli, gave back the books to the library and came home.

Then I slept for a bunch of hours. I feel like now I will be sleeping for the rest of the holidays, becaue of the meds.

Whatever, I just want it to stop feeling so bad.

It also freaks me out, how when I send light it takes some drastic turns. Like the last time, I wished every sick person a smooth recovery and now I am sick.

Kill me now.

I think I am going to end this post here, because my head is starting to feel woozy. I’ve got the Internet to save me from my pain. 

Today’s light I’m sending to myself. Just like that. Because I hope to feel better soon.

Have a very good night. 

Love, 

C

[narinbirkalp]

Hastane koridorunda sevdiğiniz birini beklemeye başladığınız anda önemini kaybediyor dünya Ve o anda ,orada başlıyor gerçek pişmanlıklar. . .

[glimmerofawesome]