#23.36

[izmirinisigi]

''Ben çok şey yaşadım... çok şey tükettim... kendimi de hayatı da, her şeyi... Kanımda bir mikropla yaşıyorum... Ben seni hak etmiyorum, sen daha iyilerine layıksın. Artık hep ıssız kalmaya...''

[gecesayesinizz]

Ne haldeyim bilemezsin...

[marispipers]

Blues

Week five is when everything comes crashing down on you and all of a sudden this thing is due today while that one is coming up next. But week five is also when post-production feels hit you right in the gut and you realise that it used to take up seventy-percent of your time, so now you are left with something akin to a void. My tute paper for screenwriting is due tomorrow, hence I thought I could set aside that vacant feeling for a while. But, it turns out that the paper is about Harvie Krumpet, so now I am just a sad blob.

For a little bit of background, to me Harvie Krumpet is a depressing animated movie which goes along the lines of Mary and Max; both of them directed by Adam Elliot. I watched the latter in high school, and even the streaks of humour in it couldn’t stop me from feeling sick after watching the movie. Don’t get me wrong, it’s a marvellous movie about being alone, different, and flawed, however I can’t help but to feel lonely and miserable for the characters throughout the entire movie. 

Reading the script for Harvie Krumpet, I am roped back to those emotions, made worse with the blues from TL memories. So maybe what I want to say is this;

I know we can’t help but feel lonely at times, but I know this too will pass before us, and we will once again feel content with ourselves. I hope that we will be constantly reminded that this sadness that is eating us is not exactly there and that there are no blanks to fill, really, for we are enough as we are now. 

Anyways, leaving you with a cute song and music video that will hopefully lift up the mood. Turn on the cc.

[forglem-migej]

Skrid nu fra mine tanker, du hører ikke til der mere.

[nonethless]

Belki de yarım kalmış mutluluklarla yetinmeyi bilmeyim bu hayatta..