#when im 20

[ieatzomb1es]

older men>>>>>

[p-antalons]

everytime i listen to speak now i feel like im a junior/senior in high school again… like im about to be a junior in college in less than two weeks… terrifying…

[marispipers]

Blues

Week five is when everything comes crashing down on you and all of a sudden this thing is due today while that one is coming up next. But week five is also when post-production feels hit you right in the gut and you realise that it used to take up seventy-percent of your time, so now you are left with something akin to a void. My tute paper for screenwriting is due tomorrow, hence I thought I could set aside that vacant feeling for a while. But, it turns out that the paper is about Harvie Krumpet, so now I am just a sad blob.

For a little bit of background, to me Harvie Krumpet is a depressing animated movie which goes along the lines of Mary and Max; both of them directed by Adam Elliot. I watched the latter in high school, and even the streaks of humour in it couldn’t stop me from feeling sick after watching the movie. Don’t get me wrong, it’s a marvellous movie about being alone, different, and flawed, however I can’t help but to feel lonely and miserable for the characters throughout the entire movie. 

Reading the script for Harvie Krumpet, I am roped back to those emotions, made worse with the blues from TL memories. So maybe what I want to say is this;

I know we can’t help but feel lonely at times, but I know this too will pass before us, and we will once again feel content with ourselves. I hope that we will be constantly reminded that this sadness that is eating us is not exactly there and that there are no blanks to fill, really, for we are enough as we are now. 

Anyways, leaving you with a cute song and music video that will hopefully lift up the mood. Turn on the cc.

[empire-state-0f-mind-blog]

My teacher pulled me aside and asked if everything was ok because I had a quickness to anger lately. And I had to lie and say everything was fine though I was trying not to cry because everything is fucked up and out of my control.

[stayreminded]

Why cant we all put aside one day to do things that feel good? Call that person up who we just text and like pictures of on facebook all day, and ask them to put aside their job, essay or exams and just sit on grass next to a church and talk, laugh, and be human. I am tired of loving computers and these invisible ghosts of people I use to know before we all turned 20 and money became our new pokemon and our phones became our jail and emotions became overrated and "emotionally unavailable" became a thing. Doesnt that sicken you? Where are the people who can live and breathe and move like Life Is To Be Lived, because you all look dead, like zombies, chasing grades, or a job, or the American Dream, or just begging for the approval of your parents or whatever chains you built on yourself. Set free. Just break those chains with your hands. You can do it, here I'll help. And if you cant right now, cause you are too wrapped up in The World then just meet me by the waterfront when youre tired and you want to find the Truth for yourself. Just make sure you dont take too long.