#265to245

[justbrooksy]

2.2.18 Going back to weekly check ins on my weight. Yay. Heh. Last week: 267.2 This week 263.4 Down: 3.8 The challenge will be the weekend, that’s where the wheels fall off. Tomorrow is refeed, cant make it an entire day though, just have my meal and move on. Will probably do long cardio to assist. I got goals man. Goals this week: be nicer to myself.

[justbrooksy]

2.3.18 Press 5RM Incline Press 4x10 DB Rows 4x10 3k meter Row Struggling bad with body image and anxiety at the gym. Haven’t felt this in a long time. My new gym is pretty awesome, but we have a small crew that I don’t care for. They have that globo gym mentality. I’m sure it’s mostly my own insecurities, but sometimes it gets under my skin and I have to refrain from being the asshole. I get it, I’m fat, old and natty, move on. Another day down. Yerhaw.

[justbrooksy]

Thank y’all for the feedback today. I appreciate it. Been maxing out about what training to do and spent today designing my own thing. Hope I can stick to it 🤣 1.31.18 Training. Bench Press 6RM 8RPE Slingshot Bench Press 3x10 T-Bar Row 4x10 Lat Pulls superset light Military Press 4x10 Airdyne 20 mins

[justbrooksy]

2.2.18 Front squat Cleans from hip Deadlift EMOM 2 reps for 10 mins Prob could have done a good bit more but I let myself get too hangry. Back at it in the morning. Starting over is hard. Cheers Friday.

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I cardiod then came home to a fresh out the oven jalapeño cornbread muffin. Paired nicely with my chicken thighs. So good. Three days in a row on cardio. What?

[justbrooksy]

Weight loss

Is a bitch, am I right?

I went though my weigh-ins since 2012 to find my lowest weights yesterday.

1/27/12 232.8

3/8/13 241.8

4/11/14 239.8 (my last half in April)

4/16/15 247.6

3/4/16 258.2

11/6/17 258.6

2/1/18 263.3

One of the biggest things is in mid 14 I stopped running almost completely and moved over to a powerlifting gym. Before that I was splitting time between Powerhouse, running and CrossFit. I thought the PL gym was going to be a good place for me, turns out it wasn’t a healthy environment. So I left in November and haven’t been back.

‘15-‘17 were rough years on me personally and professionally. My family business died and I had to start over. Let me tell you, after 40 that’s a mofo. But I survived. You can see I ate my way through it.

I kind of feel like the fog is lifting a bit. My career will be stressful and there will always be drama. I’m not sure if running will be my outlet again, but I miss it. Mostly when I’m finished! At my age I feel like I’m on borrowed time with the weights and cross training. So diet has to be the answer and well I’m still trying to figure that out. Here’s to being better.

tl;dr stopped running, got fat, can’t outwork bad diet. My goal is 245#.