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[louevak]

28.5.15 Barcelona

[itsnotnicetosnooponpeople]

Written on 28th may

THINGS I WILL MISS (2015 has been such a good year) 10pm poolside conversations Huddling up on the mattress with the aircon on and lights off peering at the horror movie on the laptop screen Truffle fries with you, talking about everything and anything for hours on end Feeling so scared when creepy guys creep up to you to make creepy propositions in a club, then your friends forming a protective circle around you pulling you close so you feel so warm and safe immedietely :') Sobbing for lost hope and dreams and you just tugging my head and pressing it against your stomach and stroking my hair until I ran out of tears Surprise revelations over Haagen daaz and running for the last train Squabbling over potato chips and a concessionary honey lemon drink for appeasement Sipping on tomato soup from a paper cup while discussing religion uninhibitedly and far too loudly Birthday surprises, people you love coming together to make you happy, birthday surprises (leading you around pretending I did not remember the way so we could buy more time to prepare the cake) Watercolour postcards and Muji notebooks My grandparents in party hats ☺️ Rolling around on my bed (my friends in my bed, one of the loveliest things in my opinion) and laughing about ridiculous things The sound we both made at the same time as furiosa took the shot accurately and blew up the motor "Is he the Austin powers guy?" (About Eddie redmayne in theory of everything) "Oh that's nice. Who is he?" (About Lana del Rey singing once upon a dream) Laughing at my mom and joking with her and her laughing along with me even though I had made her angry My friends laughing at my stupidity (happens so often I can't even list down actual occurrences) "

[emmasgrowth]

Thursday May 28 2015

today’s been a little discouraging. work was fine I guess but it’s not challenging at all - at least not to anything besides my patience. I just do mindless work like answer the phone and file invoices, and it’s starting to get me down a little. plus I found out today that my bf doesn’t have the next two weekends off from work and weekends are the only time I have off so it’s getting really frustrating and he’s brushing it off like it’s no big deal which makes it even more frustrating but that’s not the topic of this post. 

my mom threw my whole day off when I went to pick her up from work at 7 and she wasn’t ready so I had to wait and then she didn’t have her keys to lock the office up so I had to drive all the way across town and back to get a set of keys for the office from my aunt and then we went back to drop the keys back off and then we finally got home after 8pm, and my brother hadn’t finished making dinner yet so of course I had to get in the kitchen bc he’s an ass when I should have been studying. we didn’t eat until close to 9, which was when I was going to go for a walk just to get moving but I hadn’t done any psych yet so I did that and then halfway through the section I was taking notes on my motivation completely disappeared and since then I’ve been sinking lower and lower and the conversation with my boyfriend tonight did absolutely nothing to lift my spirits so I’m going to bed feeling like shit.

the only thing I can do now is hope that tomorrow is better and do my best to make it the best day that I can. it should be fun though, my dad and I are going to a prelim game for the FIFA women’s cup tomorrow night, Canada vs England, which I’m really looking forward to. just have to get through work first and then it’s the weekend. thank god. 

I hope your days were all a lot better than mine! stay smiling. 

- E.xx