#2nd choice

[teenageghostsblog]

Could I have over romanticized it? yes. Was it casual? Definitely the fuck not.

[modulated-emotions]

I'll always be someone's 2nd choice. Never their first.

[dontforgetacomma]

i’m always the backup plan. i’m loyal, i don’t leave people. people leave me. and if their better friends can’t hang out, if they need someone to shower them with love, they come to me. and then, they leave me in the dust like i’m nothing. like i didn’t just spend my time building them up with my spare pieces only so they could rip me apart with their bare hands. and i can’t say anything, i’ll seem “jealous” or “desperate” or “lonely”, and god forbid i am ever lonely. god forbid i ever need someone to build me up. no, she’s fine, she’s got everything under control. she’s not breaking with every step, her bones aren’t collapsing, her heart is still beating. she’s fine.

i’m “fine”.

[littleshadowangel-blog]

i was born to be a second choice

myself

[half-baked-poetry]

The thing about being second is that you start thinking, “atleast I’m not 3rd…” “atleast I placed anyway…” & that’s where you end up staying in a situation that gives you less than you give… less than you deserve… Maybe wanting to be special for once is selfish… But so is giving someone your all & having them not return atleast half of it… No one deserves to be second, not even for a second, no one deserves to be second guessing or experiencing secondhand love… especially to someone they put first… No one talks about how they’d rather a consolation prize or participation medal instead… How 2nd place sounds like “in absence of” & when is 1st place ever not there? How sometimes you think you are 2nd when you aren’t even an option… how they are still the only person you’d choose… how 2nd place is a sugar-coated “you lose”… Isn’t it funny how the back-up plan has your back more… because I mean… why do they even need a back-up plan anyway? But in all the discussions of second place, we forget to talk about entering the race knowing we won’t win but still expecting to anyway…

Atleast you tried

[decaying-amethyst]

[modulated-emotions]

I really did my best...

[homoheroine]

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