#3.13.16

[myquotebook]

I know you weren't good for me but at least I never felt alone

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[leongoretzkanews]

December 3: Red Bull Leipzig against FC Schalke 04

[s-mukuro-blog]

3.12.16 ~ 20.30

большую часть дня думаю о своей абсолютной никчемности. прихожу к выводу, что признать и принять ее, конечно, хорошо, но оставлять все просто так - не выход. ты тупо будешь знать: "я бездарность в этом деле, лучше уж не начинать". но есть так, то как я смогу гордиться собой?! бесконечная жалось к своему телу, неспособному что-то сделать, приведет лишь к потере самооценки и желания совершенствоваться. это со стороны выглядит так жалко. нельзя допускать, можно только бороться, раз за разом повторяя одно и то же. в сотое ли, тысячное ли, миллионное ли повторение, но обязательно получится. только так я могу гордиться собой.

[an13ty-archive]

🌸flower tag meme🌸 stolen from @housuke !!

🌸 daisy // how old were you when you had your first kiss ? - I haven’t had one yet

🌸 carnation // if you were handed a concert ticket right now, who would you want the performer to be ? - twenty one pilots !! twenty one pilots aaaaaaa!!!!!!!

🌸 jasmine // what colour looks best on you ? - black

🌸 foxglove // name 3 facts about your family - 1. there’s royal blood on both sides of my parents sides 2. I have a huge family (not immediate) 3. all of my grandparents are over 85

🌸 allium // what’s the best thing you can cook? - uh I can make a killer grilled cheese if you like garlic

🌸 orange blossom // if you could pick the gender and appearance of your child, would you? - I don’t want to choose their gender because that’s not something I should have the power to do, but I’m hoping they have wavy hair so they can have the best of both worlds

🌸 calla lily // if you died right now, what song would you want to play at your funeral ? - TIME TO SAY GOODBYE BY TWENTU ONE PILOTS

🌸 poinsetta // favorite holiday dish? - ham and biscuits (thanksgiving)

🌸 oxlip // would you ever get into a long distance relationship? - yeah !! I don’t see why not,,,

🌸 primrose // favorite kind of soup ? - French onion soup

🌸 daffodil // what’s the most thoughtful present you’ve ever receive? - hmm idk,, idk

🌸 rose // are you currently in love with someone ? - uh maybe the idea of someone? but not someone

🌸 amsonia // would you ever become a vegan? - maybe, prolly a vegetarian but I’m afraid of getting sick and under eating and not getting enough carbs

🌸 peony // what’s your favorite hot beverage? - vanilla steamers from Starbucks!,!! they remind me of happy times

🌸 tulip // for your birthday, what kind of cake do you ask for - vanilla or lavender cake ahaaa

🌸 myrtle // do you like going on planes ? - I like being on planes, but not getting on them or getting off. security makes me so scared

🌸 hibiscus // did you ever play an instrument ? - yeah, I played djembe for three years, piano for two, and recorder(different kinds) for 7 years

🌸 zinnia // who was your best friend when you were six years old ? - when I was six? uh someone from my old school (🐴)

🌸 poppy // what colour was your childhood room ? - pink

🌸 hydrangea // starbucks order ? - I don’t go to Starbucks often so I guess a vanilla steamer or whatever 🐱 recommends

🌸 violet // do you like where you’re from ? - not really, I like my second home a lot better, there are stores and a park there that my parents don’t mind me going to alone, here there isn’t anything to do

🌸 locust // what was your favorite book as a child ? - the itsy bitsy spider and Matilda ( Dahl )

🌸 rhododendron // what was the scariest dream you’ve ever had ? - it’s too long and hard to describe, sorry ,, if you ask me yourself I’ll try to answer tho

🌸 queen anne’s lace // would you rather carve pumpkins or wrap presents ? - carve pumpkins

🌸 magnolia // favorite kind of candy - sour candy lolipops and Heath bars

🌸 aster // would you rather be cold or hot ? - cold !!!

🌸 marigold // do you listen to what’s on the radio ? - I listen to the radio sometimes on the way to school but I don’t listen to the music on my own time

🌸 heliconia // do you like it when it rains? - only if there’s thunder

🌸 azalea // what’s a movie you cried while watching? - I think the only movie I’ve cried watching was Hugo Cabret lmao I think it was the scene were he was sitting in like a couch/chair? I don’t remember why , I should watch it again

🌸 dandelion // do you think you’re important? - not really

if you’d like to do this, go ahead !! you don’t have to credit me but I’d like to see yours if you do it 🎀

[malloriaa]

in the midst of chaos, I captured a lilac dusted fairy🔮 @babytav4

[axtrn]

what have I just agreed to.

oh I know. no strings attached

[llylaa]

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i wished you had been there. when everything was done it was all i could think of, and even when everything was happening. i must’ve stared into the eyes of 70 or 80 or 100 and something people before i got to his and until then everything was dry. then, i looked into his eyes and i saw yours, and i think he saw you in mine too. a dam broke somewhere beyond our eyelids and flooded the silence with fifteen seconds of uncontainable feeling. we moved on to the next person with our ocean eyes still locked, and for the rest of the 40 or 50 or 80 pairs of eyes i could only think of his and yours, blurred together like water on pupils. by the end everything was dry again, and everyone sat talking in the grass, eating acai bowls under the sun of late afternoon. i couldnt sit until i found someone to tell this lonely feeling to. i said i wished you had been there, to the only person who i thought would understand. and as soon as i started to say it i was weeping again, and he said i’m glad you wish that, and i walked to the grass carrying you in my heart.