#3.22.20

[zkywvlker]

[edo-vivendum]

Hey, alot of people in the world are experiencing anxiety for the first time (yeah I know, crazy), so for those of us with experience... We have skills that they're unfamiliar with. Cut everyone some slack where you can.

[waisophotography]

[missinvisibleandco]

"Simply Sunshine"

The form of the gerbera daisy reminds me of the sun. The color is for my aunt and her memory- the reminder to live simply, boldly, and unashamed of who you are.....(no edit.3.22.20)

[closetgremlin]

Sometimes my anxiety will pop up and be like “hey what if your back is fucked up. What if your eyes aren’t what they should be. What if you need glasses. What if your back is messed up. What if-”

but if I think about bringing it up to my mom it goes “remember that time you sort-of brought up your glasses fear to your friend who had glasses and they said that they hate when people pretend to need glasses. It probably costs money to go to the eye doctor and get your eyes checked and get glasses and all of that. It also costs money to see the doctor for back problems. You don’t have money, family money is tight, you don’t have the money for-”

and so instead of doing anything I just lowkey sit with this fear because anxiety is also like “well maybe nothing’s wrong. What if you go through all that trouble and absolutely nothing is wrong. You don’t need glasses, your back is fine, and you’ve wasted lots of money that is needed. What if-”

and there’s just! No! Winning!

[letters-never-sent]

They say goodbyes are the hardest part. And yeah, they are. They fucking suck, especially when they hit too soon and too hard and too fast and you already had too little time but now you’ve got even less. When things were just getting good again and the light at the end of the tunnel looked closer than its ever been before but now everything is uncertain. When there was so much love that had already been felt but still had yet to be said and so many memories that had already been made but hopes and wishes that still should’ve had a chance to come true.

And there was pain, too, as there always is, but look at all that good. Between hello and goodbye there was so much love. There was so much laughter. There were blazing sunsets and wine-flushed cheeks and sparkling eyes. There were late-night talks and brilliant blue skies and the fresh fall of rain. There was waiting under warm blankets for the sun to show its shy face from behind the mountains. There was watching the mist rise from the valley. There was healing. There were neverending dreams.

And goodbyes fucking suck because of that. It fucking sucks for all that good to be cut short because there is never enough time but what should’ve been is closer to enough than what is now, and goodbyes fucking suck because they aren’t fair and we deserved more and we deserved better, and goodbyes fucking suck because they’re filled with should’ve been’s and wanted to’s and too late’s and I wasn’t ready’s. And goodbyes fucking suck, but I want to remember all that came before, because the pain doesn’t take away from the joy and the hurt doesn’t erase the happiness and the unfairness of it all doesn’t make insignificant what was done. And goodbyes don’t have to mean the end, right? They don’t have to be forever. It hurts right now and there will be mourning for what was lost, but later, when all this is over, there will be hello again.

[writing-right]

i never knew how much i wanted to be awake until i felt the sun shining on my skin in the early minutes of two in the afternoon, until i saw how dark my life had been previously and how brightly it changed with just the simple addition of a window

[rainyy-snails]

blurry pics of everest! named bc they like to climb a lot!!