#3.29.20

[waisophotography]

Happy Birthday Leah!

[xandiland]

Turns out one of my favorite ship types is actually very specific.

*Person A:* Big, strong man who's generally cheerful and supportive. Can be really scary when angry. Will do anything to protect Person B

*Person B:* Great hair, flirty, a softy but very competent in battle. Tragic backstory hidden by lots of jokes. Can also be scary when angry, but usually only loses temper on behalf of people they love (AKA Person A)

[ener-chi]

Lately, if I spend too much time with electronics, I get like… headaches?? Kind of, but not really. I can feel my brain muddled up by the stimulation; it takes me a little while to purge it of the energy and return back to normal. Last night, I played some games with some old friends back home. It was fun, but it was too much, and I had a huge headache and couldn't fall asleep. I tuned into my energy body to see what I could do, and found that my liver was irritated. I took out some of the energy, and I felt immediately better! But it still took me a little bit of time to come back to normal.

But it made me realize something. In all of my time and practice with energy work and healing… I've never practiced pulling energy! I've always done pushing/sending energy, and receiving energy, but never pulling/sucking energy. I guess it just never occurred to me. I'm going to really practice it, so that I can improve.

In other news, I went to the forest again today. I spent like a good two hours there. It was a bit muddy, but it was beautiful! Also, there were a lot of people there, surprisingly, but I didn't really mind.

I worked with The Green Man for a while. I asked him about potentially making some kind of like totem or object that I could store forest energy in and recharge when I needed to, and he was definitely down with the idea. He actually gave me a design of what to make. It's an interesting design; it has a very specific shape, with holes in it in a pattern. Then, as I was walking back, on the path I found a stick that is the exact size and shape that I needed! Very cool.

Then I spent some time with Prince. Naturally, he pulled me into his Court again. Every time that I go, it appears different. This time, it was kind of like in a tropical forest with a large waterfall, and many different pools of water. I interacted with a couple different High Fae; one was a little bit more positive, and the other talked to Prince about me without ever addressing me or looking at me; they were very condescending and did not speak well of me.

On Earth, we kind of see everything from an anthropomorphic point of view; we are the center of the world, and the best species on the planet; everything else is inferior. Even if we don't say this outright, that is the POV that everything is delivered, and every action that our society takes is from this frame of reference.

But the more I explore the spirit realm, with the spirits of the world around us, and with different species of spirits, the more I find that that is definitely not true. Even though some of my interactions aren't pleasant, in a way, it is refreshing to see a different side of things that I wouldn't normally get to experience. Humans aren't the dominant species, and actually are frequently looked down upon. It makes you realize that the Universe doesn't work for you; rather, you are a part of the Universe, and treating it any other way is just fighting against the current.

Also… last night, when I couldn't sleep, I decided to give chamomile tea another try, even though I know that it gives me crazy dreams. That was a mistake, lol. My dreams were WILD last night. Like… my brain is almost hyper, and my dreams are going fast-paced, and the most random, bizarre string of events keep happening. I woke up and my brain felt weird, too. I don't think I'll be doing that again.

Welp… I think that's it for now. I'm going to turn in early tonight. I hope that everyone has a wonderful evening.

Blessings!

[10dozendahliass]

seems like a good day

[missinvisibleandco]

"Walking Papers"

Random shots from my day-a walk in the cemetary, a peek at my uncles new house, and some construction equipment (idk why?🤷‍♀️).(3.29.20)

[wavinhocoqueens]

today has been one of the first days in actually a while that i get to relax, chill, watch some youtube cause usually i have a ton of school work

[you-brighten-my-world]

I have really bad abandonment issues and when I’m anxious it comes out. Especially if I notice anything that seems “off.” Because of it I pay attention to the smallest details. I can tell when someone texts me differently or is speaking differently etc. I notice when people start distancing themselves and Mikie started doing that lately. He does it every now and then he does it but this time was more intense. And it really upset me and we had a really tough conversation today & made me terrified he’d leave me but instead he’s not leaving. He keeps proving me wrong and I just hate I even feel like he’s going to leave. But man I’m so thankful for him.

[closetgremlin]

Started a chart on Google Sheets about parallels/similarities between different main characters from my Dreamwalker story, so that’s cool. Had some trouble with formatting in the beginning but I figured it out in the end