#3.4.16

[tilthelight]

she just fucking called me babe

[velvetcinn]

even now he says it again and then says it's not true right after. he doesn't care how shitty it makes me feel to know nobody has ever loved me equally and I've always loved more. I don't want to do this anymore. I want to stop talking to him. I want this to be over. is obvious things changed since italy. he doesn't care to text me or anything when he used to talk to me all day and now is nothing. I don't want to be around him anymore. I'm tire of existing. his ex treated him like shit and he still loved her more. so I don't care. it hurts but I need to let it go. he. says it's cause we are sad but we have always been sad and he has changed and his love for me slipped away slowly and he won't admit that. we see each other and argue. conversations are strained. nothing is good.

[youcancallmeathief]

To me it looks like he was at the same place as March 4th, when he did a fanservice day from hell.

[an13ty-archive]

poor self care? idk I'm not doing things on purpose idk how to describe it I'm kinda glad I started taking long naps right after school because now I don't have to see anyone (the only time I see my parents now is breakfast) and people are actually starting to get worried. ik it sounds stupid and really strange but I just really. really need someone to start getting super worried about me because if they don't, no one is going to try to help me. both my parents and my sister have told me that sleeping like this isn't good for my body and I'm just hoping that maybe I'll get sick and they'll be forced to figure out what's wrong with me

[an13ty-archive]

ace talk- aro talk- nsfw- pda talk - keyboard smash - sexual repulsion sometimes I forget how much humans rely sexual and romantic attraction ? like when you don't experience it you kinda forget how important it is to other ppl? like idk I guess like when I watching tøp vines I forget how like half of the clique wants to fuck Tyler and Josh and how most of the vines are sexualizing them ? like I'll be scrolling though Twitter and see like a vine that's like "fuck me in the butthole" and I'll laugh (bc it's that guy who dodges a flying object in a supermarket idk it's another vine) but I don't laugh bc it's relatable ? idk I just forget sometimes that eventually I'll meet someone who likes me for my body? it's strange because I don't like my body (at all) and I don't specifically like anyone else's so I don't really expect something like that to happen? ughughsgsgshshhsjsnsisnwb ugh attraction is just very foreign for me and it's just hard to wrap my head around the idea that someone someday (maybe even now) will be turned on when they see me (lmao I'm gagging whoopsie daisy)

[reappropriationofabsence]

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[reappropriationofabsence]

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[louevak]

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