#3.7.19

[daysundercover]

Spotify, both posted about Louis’ new single Two of Us and linked it on their bio on Instagram.

[alltheselights]

Trending #1 worldwide ✨

[elceeu2morrow]

3.7.19

[93cnicole]

"Love Is Patient"

#truth.(3.7.19)

[1dlarryluv]

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[edo-vivendum]

Lost Time

Yesterday in group, a new client shared her story. She said she'd had her ED for about a year, and she ended with saying she felt like she'd lost the past year of her life and that she'd never get it back.

The idea of time with an ED wasted hit me hard. It's not a new thought, but one that hurts everytime it's triggered.

My thoughts were such: My childhood was stolen by bullies and verbally abusive teachers, and my adolescence was engulfed by my ED. And if that's the case, then has any of my life *not* been wasted. I'll never get any of that time left, and that sucks.

I sat in my self-pity for a moment, even jealous of those who'd had their ED for less than I have, but then I pulled out my journal (which I realize is a tad rude to do in group, but I needed it), and I talked myself into a better state of mind.

Yes, my childhood and adolescence were trying, difficult times, but not every moment was difficult, not every moment was misery. There were times of joy and times of relief, and those moments were living. I won't get back the lost time, but I can choose to make the most of my years to come.

Yes, in an ideal world, I would've grown up differently, but that's a reality that I cannot change. Instead, I can take my reality, and use it to make me stronger in the present. I wouldn't wish it on anyone, and I sure as hell am not grateful for it, but I don't want to sit in self-pity when instead I can empower myself to grow and move forward.

Self-pity was a step up from shame, but empowerment will be a step up from self-pity.

[spidey-sensory-overload]

but sir that’s my emotional support self destructive habit

[sploinkysome]

I just drew him for no reason..of course there is a reason its his birthday