Emotions I’ve been feeling lately...
Well, it’s been a mixed bag lately. I’ve felt better than have for a while for most of the week, but I also had a super crap day at work yesterday. I originally wanted to post a picture pertaining to that, but I figured it would be some kind of breach of privacy. Long story short, a coworker with more experience than me had a surprise shift before mine, and more or less said I’m doing an awful job. Part of my duties as a pool attendant include cleaning, but since there are several hours where we aren’t on duty, a lot can happen between shifts. Apparently a lot happened between shifts, and she assumed I hadn’t been cleaning like I should, pinned it all on me, and left it for me to do. Some of it may have been my responsibility, yes, but a large portion of it clearly wasn’t. I felt inadequate (for the things that may have been my fault) and also angry (for the things she pinned on me). Ex: Those cigarette butts weren’t there last night--I cleaned that table! Soda cans in the bushes? Where? I looked everywhere! etc.
And besides, when I walked in, it was complete chaos. People eating their lunch IN the pool (BIG NO-NO) people misusing the slide, water running down the stairs from slide overflows... it felt to me like she wasn’t doing her own job properly. But you don’t see ME throwing her under the bus, do you? I picked up the slack and was grumpy all day.
But in any case, instead of posting the report she wrote, I’m instead posting a picture of this koala I have on my desk. My boyfriend gave him to me while I was visiting, and he is now the guardian of my pin collection. He reminds me that even though I’m feeling alone in the moment, there’s someone out there who really cares about me.
