Fuck my feelings right? Fuck trying to work, fuck trying to love somebody, fuck all my plans in being successful. This place is a fucking hell hole, every week it gets worse and worse. I'm sick and tired of my NCO's being shitbags; people who are completely incompetent of being first lines. They can't fucking take charge, they can't fucking counsel, they can't teach worth a damn. The REAL ARMY is nothing but a fucking shadow of what it used to be. Budget cuts? YOU KNOW WHAT OUR COMPANY'S BUDGET IS FOR THIS MONTH!? $5,000. A WHOLE FUCKING COMPANY! Hey we need to go to the range again, can't because of budget cuts. Hey we need to do this training for the day, nope because of budget cuts. It doesn't help that my NCO's don't even make the time we have here really worth it. We had a "class" about drugs and alcohol. They said, "Hell fuck it, we'll talk about war stories, and then that one time we got drunk. Oh you remember that shit!?" Oh yeah, you remember when you actually did some work? Who the fuck are you to tell ME what to do, if you don't know what the fuck YOU'RE supposed to do. Yeah I'm only a PV2, and I've been in the army for about 4 months whilst being here in my unit-but shit, if this is what the real army is all about? Then I'm either going to the marines, or just getting the fuck out. I'm sick of all this dumb bullshit; the non-guidance, the false promises, the times where HE should have stepped up but didn't. This is a pussy ass job, and I expected more out of it. Oh and my girl situation, there isn't one. I guess I failed to be a good guy once again, so fuck it. She seems like she doesn't want me anyway, so I guess I'll just bug off.