#4:53am

[ajyal-azez]

أنا واللّيل وحدنا تحكي قصّتنا الأتية،

ونبني للبسمة ركنً، كضيفٌ عزيز

كل ليلة يجيئ، مُتسلل القلوب وأتي.

[unalive-creature]

Oh my fucking tits i want to bleed..... shit fuck

[medusamooon]

UP 🌚

[mephispop-deactivated20230121]

ok now im actually goinf BYE

[madpotatodisease]

I’m the most myself at odd times in the morning.

[jediminddicks1000]

This pregnant mama is tried but hungry for Mac and cheese! 👏👏👏👏👏🤦‍♀️🤰 guess I’ll read more Adam driver x reader since I can’t sleep! And I’m out of Mac and cheese!!!!!! I need cuddles! Send help. Currently 5 am.

[diaries-of-a-hopeless-soul]

Entry #48: May 7th, 2019 (4:53am)

Tonight's been one of those nights. I can't sleep but I'm incredibly exhausted. I just wanna go into a coma for a few years. Nick was in the hospital about a week ago which is whatever cause he's been going so often that he should just get a room on hold since he's there so much. Anyways, this time it was for an appendectomy. He gets on my nerves a lot but he is my brother and I do care for him. These passed few months he's actually been really good too. That's probably thanks to his boyfriend Jay. They're nice together. But tonight he asked me to be his alarm clock for tomorrow. He's never done that. He's never done it cause he knows I'll say no. But he asked me and I said I'd wake him. The moment I said yes I knew it was a mistake. It was easy to distance myself from him because I genuinely hated him. But he's been doing better and now I realize we're getting closer. I can't have him emotionally invested in me. Well either way, he will. The goal is to be as far detached from him as possible so it won't hurt him as much when I'm gone. But within a week since he's come back from the hospital, it's all gone out the window. Even when I try to kill myself I'm bad at it. I have to get him to get angry with me again. Both him and my mom. I just need to separate from them. It will be easier on them when I'm gone if I don't have much of a relationship with them.