#5-27-15

[ifwethinkandwishandhopeandpray]

Ok I want to know what shady shit is happening? It first appeared some lads stayed in Vegas while Louis went to LA. Pictures posted after they were in LA supposedly of Vegas still. Confusing. We see Luke popping up coming out of LA clubs. When did he get there? We see Stan magically appear leaving LA and we wonder was he in Vegas, too? Then Louis travels from LA to Van Nuys to NYC to Barcelona which took almost a week. You know...airport delays. Boys posting stuff seeming like they’re in London. Just kidding. He poofs himself into Barcelona and behind the cloud of smoke is Nazim. Maybe I just missed him for the last month? Pictures start coming online and all have a serious delay, have no source for the fans except a tag by UA accounts which some say last night and some say today. A full day later and none of them bitches posted their own pic to twitter or instagram. Just happy with the memory of the UA account I can search for if my friends ask how I met Louis. Indoor pictures with no shoes. Outdoor photos with no names. Group pics...did he shave? Sorry distracted. and then, now some random fan girls wearing an Eagles shirt and a fucking TIARA and don’t look dressed for Prom OR old enough to be getting married having a last night out as a single lady! Well, the fact that people are saying Nizam posted the lad pic from London helps alot. Thank you for bringing that up.

Any one can clear any of this up, feel free. i’m all ears.

[notchristie]

It's an uncomfortable topic to talk to me about and it makes me feel like I don't really have a say in what you're going through which sucks because I want to help you and I want to be able to say something but I'm afraid I'm gonna say something wrong. I didn't really have anything to say though because really what can/am I supposed to say... My ex boyfriend coming to me about his current girlfriend... It's weird but I still talked to you about it because like I said I wanna be there for you. It was weird because there were periods of long silences but it's not a weird or bad kind of silence. It was like those comfortable silences... Maybe because we're still comfortable around each other idk. But that topic itself isn't something I like talking to you about but I'm not going to tell you I don't wanna help you with it especially because you didn't really have anyone else to talk to about it... And it's like you don't really appreciate the fact that I'll be there for you... I had to end the call because my internet was down and I told you you could call back later and the response you gave me was just like ehh like shoot I know you going through some shit but lol it doesn't mean you can't seem appreciative for what I do for you. Idk.

[ep-hemerall]

its like, im ok with being alone i dont need someone there to comfort me when im sad or to make happy memories with im comfortable with only having myself which is a really good thing bc everyone is temporary but im so used to being alone & only depending on myself that when i do find someone i lose interest in them so easily i leave before im left and sometimes it sucks it really just fucking sucks

[luckyleolion]

why do i love food so freaken much????? ugh! food is so good and tastey. i am a foodaholic. not even joking. but i mean i need to stop it! i want to be healthy and i want to get rid of my belly. so i am trying to calm my addiction.

[powerthesoul]

Over

Over before it started

[luckyleolion]

alright so i can be a stress knot and extremely negative sometimes but i have to give myself some credit right now. i have not been biting or nibbling on my nails. since the break up about a year ago now i have stopped the bad habit. and i have to say that that is a really good habit. go me.

[luckyleolion]

wow this jell-o was super good. like super good. like what. jell-o man. thats the good stuff cx

[luckyleolion]

glee season 5 episode 3 “the quarterback” 

damn. super moving. i didn’t stop crying for a minute. gawd that was heart breaking. i dont know, it was just really heart breaking. but lemme tell you it was NOT as bad as sammy from dance academy. THOSE few episodes killed me hard core. i think the reason why this one got me so much though was because he died in real life. that was pretty hard to swallow. keeping that in mind the people in dance academy must be damn good actors and actresses because damn they got me even worse than the people who actually lost someone. it was like 2 or three episodes about sammy dying and i know that was probably the hardest ive ever cried for a characters death. second hardest goes to greys anatomy and third kinda gets fuzzy. but the death in greys anatomy reflected the end of my relationship with taurus so i was crying nearly nonstop with greys anatomys seasons 1-3 because during those first few seasons me and taurus were ending it. sammy dying in dance academy though, i remember there was nothing going on with me at all so me crying that hard was all due to the show. i took it pretty hard because dear lord i loved sammy. this may not have been as moving as the shows i listed but i mean it was seriously moving because i knew that the people acting on the show all lost someone for the reals. they really lost someone they knew really well and spent years with. so i mean...maybe that was what really got me. i know if he was still alive for the reals, i would NOT have cried that hard OR that long. i cried literally the whole episode. if he had not died i real life the show would not have moved me one bit, but (and i found this out while reading up on the actors death 2 minutes into this episode) to know that they had to act like nothing was wrong for 2 whole shows while they sang beatles songs being happy go lucky like nothing happened, damn. and then to go on to even the next show like nothing. thats hard. thats just ridiculous. that horrible. thats not right. thats mean. thats cruel. thats sad. and THAT is why i cried so hard and for so long.