I don’t think I’ve ever worked harder I wanted to “relax” tonight, but I find myself at Starbucks, all I do is work & school I can’t remember the last time i had some real social interaction that wasn’t at Starbucks. I have cut off Facebook & Instagram which leaves me with no mindless scrolling & still I don’t see how I can’t find the time to do what I NEED to do. Last night I was studying at the kitchen table, last one in the house awake. This morning I was studying at the kitchen table, first one in the house awake...late nights, early mornings. & I cried today when I received the score on my Chemistry exam. I hate when faculty tell me I’m an exemplary role model student, I think to myself: do you know who you’re talking to? no, you’re wrong because If I was I wouldn’t be struggling so much right now. I’m really beginning to question whether or not I should pursue my current objective-Research Scientist & PhD in order to become a professor to help push to eliminate achievement gaps by race. I want to graduate and be done, but it will take an additional 3 semesters, I didn’t think STEM courses required so much time, but boy was I wrong & I don’t mind the work, I LOVE learning, I just wish I didn’t have to work so much so I could dedicate all of my time to my studies...I don’t mean to sound like a sob story, but then again this is my tumblr...that I never login on and no one reads lol
