#6.6.2021

[girlucifer]

lucifer darling you are actually insane

[prosy-days]

June 6, 2021 - Day 352

I always love reorganizing my books.

[godsnameisjoy]

LOVELY

Date: 6 June 2021

Duration: 33 minutes at 9:51 PM

Depth:

Written in the morning after the session.

Last night’s meditation session was short but intensely sweet. There was depth of peace which I sensed at many different times in the session. All exercises were conducted with sincere attention. It was lovely.

[hestias-den]

Hestia's Den

I wanted to take the time to explain the thought behind this blog, mostly its name.

There is not a lot of space upstairs (in my head) because new ideas and thoughts are birthed rapidly in a pace that's too fast for me to organize it so I like to write things down to clear up space while also giving me time to understand it better.

Hestia's Den is a place to write about personal enigmas in great detail and analyze and pick them apart until I understand them to a satisfying degree. Icarus' Tirade are just impulsive or random rants that come and go. As soon as I write about them I forget them. These are different because they're more serious to me, I'm currently viewing them as research projects.

I chose the name Hestia after the Greek Goddess in charge of Mount Olympus' Hearth and therefore did the cooking and helped try maintain peace in the home. Apollo and Poseidon both wanted to marry her but she refused and instead asked Zeus to make her an internal virgin.

I had been looking up aromantic Greek gods, cause I believe there's a Greek God for everything, and I instead for headcannon Asexual Gods which wasn't too bad even though I still had to do some more research. My main choices were Artemis (a personal favorite), Athen (who is viewed more as an asexual lesbian), and Hestia. I decided to head cannon Hestia as aromantic since she refused marriage for her personal ideals. I also liked the idea of Hestia's Hearth and how it was a common place for sacrifice for the Gods. The way she tends to it made me think of a campfire which then birthed the thought if people sharing secrets and stories at a campfire. I thought it'd be perfect for me to share my personal thoughts.

Hestia's Hearth was sadly already being used for someone's blog but Hestia's Den was up for grabs. Den makes me think of a small tucked away home, something private and personal to that person and Hestia, keeping her Hearth in mind, gave my Den idea a type of homey-warm feel that I instantly fell in love with. It created the perfect atmosphere for me to write about personal inquiries and share them to really no one but myself. To be honest, I don't plan to share these opinions and thoughts with anyone but myself but if someone was to stumble across these I wouldn't be mad or anything but these are made specifically for me so if someone wants to explain how I'm wrong or disagrees with what I've said, go argue with yo mama cause I'm not interested in talking about it.

I just got done writing about 5 different topics i wanted to talk about on this blog, all are unfinished. I haven't posted them because I want them to be done before I post it. I forgot how exhausting it is to wring out your feelings and thoughts and place them into neatly organized semi-well written pieces. I'm so tired and mentally drained bruh.

[puregrief]

فيه ناس كده أعرفهم بره تمبلر وبيبقى نفسي أقولهم "لأ أنت تيجي معايا تمبلر وهتتبسط هناك خالص" لكن مش هينفع للأسف عشان أحافظ ع سرية هذه البلوج. بس يعني خسارة والله، أنا بتاعة فيسبوك دي يادوب حتة صغيرة خالص مني، تعالى هنا وهتحبني والله :(( -أو هتكتئب أيهما أقرب- هه يلا.

[writing-back]

Dear Broski,

Wooaaahhhh! A multi-message posts!

Ayeeee self-positive talk we like that. Self loathing talk is dick head behavior and I’d hate to have physically beat love into you.

RE Secrets: maybe it’s also the trust of others that makes you like being told others’ secrets. It shows that you’re close with that person and they trust you. The “might be bullshit” reason sounds good too tho.

5.21: Ah, yes I love how trauma be fuckin up nearly EVERY aspect of our lives. It’s...how you say “kinda sexy”.

5.25-26: I really like the sound of bipolar lottery because I really did gamble and lose. Smh. Also your explanation for me feeling giddy was spot on bro. Thanks for explaining.

I think it’s funny (in an ironic way) how we both made posts the night before seeing each other.

Until next time,

Broski Icarus