#61216

[grouchydairy]

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[nevers0ber]

One year ago today, I changed; I’m more cautious of where I go when I go out, I look for exits and the nearest one to me, and I hate having my back to the door and not knowing who’s coming inside. I didn’t expect my life to change drastically that night, I was out having fun and forgetting everything I was dealing with that week. I tried to pull my friends out the club at like 1:45 but they insisted on staying because the DJ was playing good music - so we stayed. At 2:02am that morning everyone kinda paused for a split second to understand what they just heard and not even 5 seconds later we heard it again and people came storming into the room I was in. We fell, a couple people stepped on us to get out but it was only understandable because in that moment I too would’ve done everything and anything to get out. I stood up and just stood there in shock as people fell to the floor or ran like hell and then I got thrown into a dressing room with 7 other people. You saw phone lights going on and heard whimpering in the darkness. We were all terrified, we thought these were our last moments. I didn’t know who to call first, but I ended up calling the last person I texted that night, she didn’t answer so I tried at least 3 more times and nothing so then I called my mom. As soon as I heard my moms voice I broke down and cried and apologized for whatever I had done up until that moment. She kept telling me she loved me and telling me it’s okay, what was I sorry for and that I was scaring her, I finally told her I was at the club and he was shooting people and I know he’s coming into this room and I will never see her again. She began screaming and yelling for my brother so I told him I loved him too and that I was sorry. The texts began to flood in from my family and calls and I just stood on the phone with my mom as she tried to calm me down. Where I was laying I could feel the bullets hitting the wall and I could feel the vibration on my back, you could hear cries echoing into that dressing room. When that AC unit fell and whoever that man was pulled me out of that room, I was grateful and I hope one day I will meet that man and thank him for pulling me out and saving my life. I will meet him, hopefully today. Too many times I think of what I could’ve done or should’ve done and I’m thankful that I was too drunk to stand because I would’ve done something reckless that night that could’ve caused 7 people their lives.

Do you know what it’s like to come to a realization that your life is about to end? If not, I hope you never do. Live every single day like it’s your last, never settle for less than happy.

[nevers0ber]

One year later

[leomacgivena]

Xユーザーのマサキ㌠さん：「5年在籍してようやく安田講堂入れました」

[anotherabditory]

Those Three Years Would've Felt Nice Today

I want something that's true from the start. And even now I'm fighting for it. Maybe someday I'll be truly happy.

[soccerstar13]

Always in our hearts ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜 #49 #pulse #neverforget #61216

[error404-fucks-not-given]

These memories like to hit me out of no where and I swear to fuck I'm going to kill myself because of them...

[seepinghoney]

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yay congrats

thank you .. Boy do i feel dumb