I’ve come to a realization that I’ve never written you a proper letter. Or at least I don’t think I have....have I? Doesn’t matter. I haven’t done this in forever so if it gets really emotional or is really sporadic I’m sorry please bear with me. Truthfully I feel like you don’t understand how much you mean to me, sure you get the gist of it, i love you more than anyone, you’re always going to be my number one...blah blah. I mean how much you REALLY mean. It’s like I wake up everyday and I think of you, I go to sleep and I’m thinking of you. I’d drop everything I’m doing just for you, if you wanted something I’d work hard to get that, just for you. I put your happiness and your comfort above mine. I know I’m difficult to deal with sometimes and there are times I act aloof or I detach but (as the last thing I reblogged put into words for me) I always look back at you. I want you to know that there’s nothing you can do to make me hate you. I’ll get angry or I’ll say mean things but never would I hate you, you’re everything to me, and I’m not going to give this feeling away to hatred. I also know that sometimes I’m bad at being affectionate or romantic but thats not your fault and never will be, in my heart I always feel the same for you and it only grows, never fluctuates. I’d say our relationship is successful and healthy, on my standards, you’re the best person I’ve ever dated (and ever will date). I don’t wanna give this up....ever. I wanna be this way until we’re old & ugly & still in love. Every time I think of us ever breaking up I get prickles on my skin and my chest hurts and it reminds me why I need you. I need you because I love you. You have the power to destroy me completely, if you ever wanted. I’d beg you not to use that power but if it meant your happiness I wouldn’t care. I can’t wait to grow with you, I can’t wait to become a better lover, and better boyfriend, a future husband. I love you, I love our family, I love my life (with you), I’m never giving you up. You’re mine for as long as you’ll let me. Even if you broke all my bones and threw me into the oceans as long as you tell me you still want me, I still want you. I’ll always want you. I love you.