#7:54pm

[ajyal-azez]

إضاءةٌ خافتة، وموسيقى تُشبهني، وخريرُ ماء على شكل شلال صغير يُهدّئني. أنا هنا وحدي أحتفي بِنفسي وبالجمادات الساكنة من حولي، فأصغي إليّ دون بحثٍ فـ أجدني واكتفي بي وحدي.

[mintydeluxes-blog]

@gold-dust599 it happens again

This time it's at my guild

To anyone else seeing this do you have the game, and has this happened to you?

[ajyal-azez]

دائماً أثق بأفعال الناس هي أفضل مترجمٍ لأفكارهم.

[ajyal-azez]

نحنُ الحقيقة الواسعة، التي يظن البعض منها بأنها مجرد وضع خيال. فلا نجمة تضوي سماء الليّل الكحيل غيري، وتهدي لكَ دربً طال توهانه بطريقٌ ممهد.. سهل سريع الفهم.

[diaries-of-a-hopeless-soul]

Entry #56: August 21st, 2019 (7:54pm)

As I enter my final few days I find that I realize that it's going to be the last time I do certain things and, to be honest, it doesn't phase me at all. Now that could be because I haven't truly accepted that I'm basically dead already, or it could be the complete opposite. Maybe I've completely accepted that I'm dead and nothing matters. Either way, I'm still dead in a few days. However it is kinda weird when I'm having some sort of interaction with my parents and it's completely normal. They don't even know that I'll be out of their lives soon. It'll hurt them at first, but I'm sure they'll come to understand why I'm doing this. It just doesn't feel right to be living the way I am. There's nothing I can do about it except end it, so that's what I'm doing.

[illbequietnow]

should I just never get my hopes up for anything ever? because that’s what the world is telling me so far