Where were these written?
Went to google photos and pressed info. 4:43pm but NO LOCATION
And then zooming out i see a video that time hop didn’t show
“ i love you so much. I love you i love you i love you. You’re going to make me cry. I love you. Sleep tight, sweet dreams. *kisses*”
UNNNNBREAKKKK MY HEARRTTTTT.
Nah chill it’s not that serious but my eyes did water bc
You could HEAR the love. Ughhhhh.
I tell my friends I love them all the time but telling another guy? Nah 😭 .
I’m here alone in my classroom so of course I’m in my thoughts but it’s okay. It’s okayyyyy. Time to separate algebra, trig, and geometry worksheets and print out other worksheets.
Maybe I’ll go to bingo tonight, have a couple of drinks and see if I have any luck.
Yesterday I went to the movies for the first time alone.
I felt like I was in the movie how to be single.
I mean I went out alone to eat once when mom was in the hospital. Shrimp pad Thai. So good.
I remember the hostess raising her eyebrow when I said I would be eating alone. It bugged me a bit but the food was so yummy I forgot.
Last night felt the same.
I felt nervous walking in, getting my snacks, it was a full theatre. I sat down, let my chair recline and.... it was actually a great time.
I enjoyed the movie, the snacks were great, by the time I came out the moon was high and proud and I drove back home.
Half an hour of singing in the car and just feeling the wind since my window was down.
Healing comes in wavessssss.
You got this future Ashley. I know on your low days you’ll re-read every post you’ve ever written from beginning to now.
But look how far you’ve come!
Yeah yeah you’re still a sap and write love poems and shit but so whattttt
You haven’t called, you haven’t texted, you haven’t written letters.
No matter if there have been MANY days that you wanted to.
Out of sight, not out of mind, but out of....need ?
Out of need to self sabotage?
Out of need to be noticed ?
Out of need to say HEY pick me, choose me, love me.?
But it is easier, being here.
Never will it be out of mind.
It can be acceptance though, yeah let’s go with that.
Okay I’m spending too much time writing my feels.
I dream of you from time to time
Of things you’ll never say
Words popped up in grey and black
You hum a tune and lay back
And take out your secret stash
Inhale we try to keep the peace
Cuz loves not something that we lack
I laugh and say this storm is us
Mighty and scary to others
I smile and follow you as best I can
You stop and spin as the storm rages on
I raise my eyebrow and you don’t hesitate as you start
Off key notes sung loud with pure laughter and joy
You spin me around and around
Before we know it we’re holding each other as the tornado becomes our master
Shooting to the sky we rise
