#8.24.20

[radicalurbanista]

8.24.20. Kenosha, WI

Police shoot Jacob Blake 7 times in the back as he gets into his car. The city has taken no action against the officers yet, but has deployed force against community members and called in the National Guard. Protests across the country are starting tonight in solidarity with Kenosha, WI and Jacob Blake, who’s currently still in “serious condition.”

[ener-chi]

I’ve been taking a little bit of a break from my usual practice. Not by choice, of course lol it never is. I’ve just been feeling kind of... out of it, for some reason. I recognized that I was probably feeling a little bit burnt out; after all, I was going pretty hard with everything. Instead of fighting it like I would normally do, I’m just trying to go with it and let it ride out. It’s best to go with the current and let it take you, rather than fighting against it. So instead, I’ve been looking ahead, to the future.

I can feel Summer fading. Every day, I can feel the energy of summer a little less strongly than it normally is. I’m just soo stoked for Autumn! It’s going to be so good; I keep having visions of it, and the energy of Autumn. It’s going to be great!

Soo I’ve been thinking; Halloween/Samhain falls on a Full Blue Moon this year... and that’s a pretty big deal. The energy is going to be extremely strong, not to mention that there is going to be a lot of witchy energy in the air due to the fact that other practitioners are going to be celebrating as well... 

Anyways, I’ve been mulling it over, and I think I’m going to do my first formal spell on Samhain! I say “formal” because technically speaking I do like spells and stuff all the time, but I do it with pure energy work instead; I’ve never done an actual “spell” spell, if that makes sense. But I think that Samhain this year is a really good time to do it. I’m still trying to decide what kind of spell I want to do, but I guess we’ll see. I’m also thinking about dressing up as a witch on Halloween lmaooo

Hmm... I don’t think that I have anything else. Things are changing. But I truly believe that it is in the best way possible. 

I hope that everyone has a great evening!

Blessings!

[edo-vivendum]

I have two months to get a job.

I can't wear a mask more than 15 minutes without getting lightheaded, so I don't know how this is even going to work. I still don't know how to drive. My immune system isn't great, and I have asthma... So I can't safely rely on rideshare or public transit. I really can't see this working.

And for fucks sake I'm not moving in with my parents. I'd rather get thousands of dollars into debt than willingly put myself in an emotionally compromising position.

I feel fucked.

I don't know what I'm going to do.

I'm trying to promote myself as a tutor, but I have one client and his business is slowing down as the semester starts.

I hate this so much. Why do my parents have to choose during a pandemic to stop financially supporting their mentally ill, physically vulnerable child? Yeah, sure, I'm the oldest, but I'm also the only one who had such a damaging childhood and I'm the only one who doesn't have a job and I'm the only one who isn't receiving government unemployment bc I don't fucking qualify cause I couldn't balance work+treatment +full time school so I didn't work enough hours.

My parents think it's nbd for me to move home with them. And to tell them the truth—that they were emotionally neglectful parents to a highly sensitive child, that they hurt me profoundly, that I will never feel emotionally safe around them and thus will never be able to thrive while living with them—that would crush them... And I do love them.

So that's my situation.

[thefakejeffreyazoff]

Jeffrey posted on his Insta story. 8.24.20

[boy1shh]

nothing like watching foodie beauty, alr, and binging videos while restricting :,)

[a-little-bit-of-pretty]

Drip Drop

I want to twirl in the rain The bitter shower, the driving rain I want to dance in the rain Feel it burrow under my skin

I want to wallow in the rain The cleansing shower, the loving rain I want to drown in the rain Feel it purify my sin

I want to cry in the rain The soothing shower, the calming rain I want to escape in the rain Feel it hide my tears

The rain is pouring down The car shakes The house shakes I shake

I want to twirl in the rain And I Will

[boy1shh]

I have actual therapy tomorrow and im finally gonna go in depth about my eating disorder and how i don’t want to recover. That short time period that I went back to eating, I never felt so safe when I was restricting. Without my ed i don’t feel myself.

[brianajungwirthinstagram]

B via IG ⎮ 8.24.2020