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Sparking something inside of me to lose 20 lbs

he is going to leave because i am too much to handle because i am too childish to take my experience and learn from them to form my own inferences i am never going to learn because i will always be a child

#12.26.22

why did god chose me to be sick

#tw #personal #12.24.22

im so disconnected from everyone that my girlfriend questioned if i truly love her cus idk how to show my feelings without feeling disgusted by myself

#tw #12.28.21

i want to be selfish and avoid it i don’t understand why you bring it up. i want to manipulate you and make myself the victim but i can’t

#tw #12.27.21

got back on my pills and it’s made me feel nauseous and have less of an appetite. 5 days binge free!!!!!! Restriction is on 😎

#disordered eating #tw #7.3.21

I HOPE I GET FOOD TAKEN AWAY FROM ME ENTIRELY I HATE FOOD

#4.29.21 #disordered eating #tw

gets sad becuz im not getting attention how I want

#why am I like this #tw #4.13.21

I gained weight all the way up to 142 and I cannot stand it. I’m speechless,, how could I do this to myself holy fuck i need to start restricting asap

#disordered eating #tw #3.25.21