#8.ay

[senisevdimiste]

Ah,fazla düşülesi.

[kuytumda]

“-Why do you prefer to watch movies and attach to the characters instead of speaking to people? +Because they are not real and that makes my life easier sometimes.”

~Actually my dad used to says that i imagine everything in my mind and i was far beyond reality. i don’t know why but he convinced me that i couldn’t be successful. i mean, my thoughts were always corrupted and he has always thought i was never enough for him. So i became introverted and started to write everyting in my mind instead of speaking. My self confidence has been crushed by him during my childhood what could i do? Anyway he has taught me just one thing in my life, which is quite harsh, that there is always more behind happy endings in our lives and nothing can be as perfect as we think.

My point is; if you came across people who always disappoint your feelings, you would try to make your own world in your mind and actually that is not a bad thing at all.

One day, i recognized that i was writing a sad fairytale about my life but i couldn’t finish the all story because i couldn’t imagine any happy ending so i started to collect old and second hand fairytales and i have got more than 60 books. i have been trying to read all of them and find what’s more about them. By the way still “the little match girl” is my favorite because at the end of the story the girl is dying. I mean, what could i find more behind that!?

Sorry, i was talking to myself in my mind again and i did not tell you any of those answers.

I said that watching fiction characters was easier than speaking to real people and you answerd that i was being “deep” so we just shut up and continued to watch the movie~