help! i don't speak english, i used a translate
Him: scorpio moon (8th), libra venus (8th), virgo sun-mercury-vertex (6th), taurus mars (2nd), pisces asc, gemini juno (3rd). Me: capricorn moon (11th), aquarius venus (12th), aries sun (2nd), pisces mercury (1st), asc in pisces, gemini mars-juno(4th), cancer vertex (4th). Synastry: his venus falls my 8th, his moon is between the 8th and 9th. his sun-mercury-vertex falls my 7th. his juno falls my 4th. my moon falls his 10th. my venus falls his 11th. my mercury-asc falls his 12th. my sun falls his 1st. vertex-juno falls his 4th. mars fall in each other's 3rd.
I dated this guy for only 6 months but I felt like we were destined from minute 0. I always had problems with commitment but with him everything was so easy, it was like jumping into the void wasn't so dangerous, he was the person I would do anything crazy with just if it meant having them at the end of the tunnel. Two weeks after asking me to be his girlfriend, he ended our relationship by cell phone because he couldn't match the intensity of my emotions. To me he made excuses that we were not compatible. To the others he said that I did not change my attitudes and that I was the worst person in the world.
Those 6 months were the most intense of my life. We were not the best for each other. Many times I lied and was disloyal. As was he on his part. Most of the time it was fighting, it was constantly living in that searing fear that he would leave me, that I wouldn't be able to complement the love I felt for him. It was telling him and having him tell me that I couldn't see all the nice things he did for me, it was losing myself in the need to feel loved by him. Still, I reached out to him many times when it was over. He promised me that we were going to get back together. We even went back to sneaking out again because he wanted no one to know, even if it was only for a week. Then, I blocked him and he was with everyone, and erased me from his life in an instant. But his email was not blocked and I contacted him. I desperately looked him up, told him it didn't matter if he messed around with other girls if it would make him come back to me. I told him that his words were my religion and the love I had for him surpassed any limits. I never got a direct response other than humiliation towards me or that he would ignore me completely.
It was my birthday and I waited for his message, I only got a like from his sister to my Instagram story and his friends stalked me. Before that I had stopped sending emails but then I sent him one again asking him if he ever understood all the mess he made in my life, in my person, in me. I won't deny that he promised he would come back but he also didn't tell me to expect it, for moments yes, for others, he said not to. He never asked me not to leave him alone, only that he was not going to answer me anymore. 8 months ago he left me. A few days ago he uploaded a story and he was with a new girl. They were at my favorite coffee shop, same place we sat the first time we went together, he ordered himself almost the same thing he did with me only now he changed his drink to a latte. And she also ordered my favorite dessert to share with her. It hurts me so much because when we broke up she promised to take me there to talk better, to fix things, to start over because she loved me too much to lose me.
He left me 8 months ago but there is not a day that goes by that I don't think of him, that I don't feel his touch on my skin. I feel like a damn stalker, someone who can't get over the past, I don't know what else to do to make these feelings bloom and come out of my skin. I can't stop crying, it feels like my husband was stolen, but it wasn't even a theft because he just left the wedding. I knew the 8th and 12th house synastry was deadly but I didn't expect it was getting into hell alone. And that hell is so addictive to live with the need to go back to it. I have tried everything to get over his lack of love for me but I feel like he didn't even get a small part of it.
What were your experiences with this synastry?
